Take me by the hand

Reflection Post

2011-10-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today, the person who manage to whirl my mind was none other than Atika. She called me when i was on the circle line asking me what was so important that i can forgo outings with Xin Rong like that. I remained silent as i really don't know how to answer her question. Xin Rong is very disappointed. I know right? I know that she is upset since yesterday when she used that tone to text me back. I apologized but she said used to it. yeah that proven what a jerk i am. But what can i do except for making her happy on Friday? Does she even wants to see me on friday? I think she hates me till she doesn't wanna see me anymore already la.. Thought that they will scold me, but they never. That made me even more guilty. I know things are wrong. But i really don't know how to make them right. I miss them. But saying this make me a perfect jerk. Actually i am a heartless and irresponsible girlfriend who cannot even keep promises to outings with my girls. Seriously i don't deserve any girls to be with me anymore. I'm not deserving of any girlfriends with me. They are really unlucky to the max to have me this kind of take aviation and R more important than them. I suck to the core. Seriously suck to the core. They should just cut all contacts with me, because they are really awesome girls who don't deserve this type of treatment. She stood by me when i need someone the most, when he left me in the cold.I suck to the max treating someone who treat me with her entire heart. I think i so totally disappoint her and broke her heart. I really really feel so guilty. She was always there. But i always left her for him. i deserve to lose this moon man.. I cannot even sleep last night. Don't even have appetite for dinner today. Think i will skip dinner and drink some water just rest in for the day. Haix..

Mr Lim's Death Anniversary Day

2011-10-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

Today marks the First Year death annivesary of the late Mr Joseph Lim. So fast one year has passed. Planned to visit his grave this year and went together with Yong Xiang and Justin. We spent close to 2 hours from 2pm just walking around the christian to locate his grave. Serious No Joke.

We started the journey by meeting at paya lebar mrt that bus stop. Took circle line down from there to bishan. During the ride, someone called me. After her call, my mind went whirling. Then from bishan we transfer to red line down all the way to choa chu kang. We were catching up and stuff about our current school life. It was a really pleasant session chatting with them though. After alighting at MRT, we had a quick lunch at Pasta Mania at Lot1 before heading down to basement to get a stalk of white rose each. I had mushroom pasta with combo B. Felt that we should get a boutique instead of getting only one stalk.. Like so stingy only. Budget budget.. Whatever la. In the end still get one stalk each mah.

After that we took bus 172 down to CCK cemetery and alighted at Pathway 3. Justin located the office after walking close to half an hr and we waited outside at the office for the guy to come back. Talked to another uncle who came to ask us for directions too. Ask the guy for directions and dragged justin out. I was telling him that its the one downhill he dun believe me. So we went to the old cemetery to search for close to 1 hour before locating the actual one. God and Mr Lim bless. Finally visited his grave. Tears still rolled down my cheek as i read the verse on his tombstone. More to tears of being touched i guess? Legs nearly broke, but what kept us going was the thought of must see Mr Lim's grave. Therefore regardless how tired we were, we still pushed on till we saw his grave. Yong Xiang wasn't feeling well, he wanted to cab home. But i insisted that it was too expensive and we took bus to cck bus interchange. Really glad that get to visit Mr Lim today on his death anniversary. Ate Yami Yoghurt and took 67 from CCK and alight at bedok MRT that stop.

Talked to R 45 minutes today. Really long chat about alot of things. I hate bai wasting his money. R said he wanted to take this CP stay as his last time stay and not gonna book anymore. But honestly told him that it was ridiculous and we should not do that. He and bai quarrelled over the phone i guess? R sounded very fed up. We were discussing abt his attitude towards bai and with other spotters and all. He said he will settle my Nikon camera that i wanted. But i really don't want to touch his money to buy such an expensive blated birthday present for me...Not worth it. He spent close to 400 bucks buying his PSP battery and a new camera already, really don't want to use his money anymore. Even he said can earn back cause hes with army. Alot more la. Forgotten also.

Then we hung up when entered food court of bedok interchange accompanied Justin and yong xiang for dinner before we took Bus 16 back home.

-Day Ended-Reflection time-

The day he got his replacement.

2011-10-04T15:00:00.000+08:00

Really a mixed feeling day. R told me that his standby training would end late. Ended up it ended damn early abt 10plus. Tmr was suppose Mr Joseph Lim's first year death anniversary. Therefore told R that need to go back to NAS to check what is the exact location of his cemetery. Woke up ard 11.51am then went to wash up and all. Preparing to go meet kitty as her meeting with her classmates PW meeting ended early. Was planning to go eat seoul garden with her and shop for the cheese cake ingredients. But ended up on the way to NAS, R called. That was really unexpected. He said Avian cargo landed wanted me to check. But i was otw to school and could not. So no choice he went home to check and update me. Feel so bad. Need to fly kitty's kite. Prepared to find a bomb shelter. Prepared for her to slaughter me already. Went to school, waited for mr victor ong and sit at the general office. Left my contact number with the lady and rushed off to airport. Luckily never cab bcause 34 came in time.

Ended up reach the airport and waited for R to arrive in front of crowne since bai wants to get it from crowne. Both R and me think its very risky plus under the situation we do not know what runway is Avian cargo depting from it is not easy to get her. R arrived just in time and as we waited for bai at the seats and discussed. Its a wrong decision to get it from crowne. If i had gone to T1 vm, would have at least gotten its full body. As we were discussing, Avian cargo departed. Freaking disappointed. Ended up we walked to the sky train to T1, i was quite surprised. R actually said he gotten it before and actually the main aim is want to get it for me. *Shocked for a moment* Don't understand why is bai so anxious about cp. He keep rushing R and me to go book cp. Honestly i don't know is it the right decision to even go to cp. Because if we are only doing it for leisure, why are we spending so much money on our hobby? Not really worth that much money what.

Nowadays thanks to bai i do not even have a chance to have heart to heart talks with him because everything i ask he will probe. It really leaves us with no privacy at all. How is he gonna open up to me when there is an extra person asking almost everything that he asked me like that day when he mentioned about his mother and family stuff like that? I seriously hate that but do i have a choice? Sometimes i cant help feeling that the title that Fabian gave me should go to bai instead. But i don't really have a chance to bring it up to R thanks to bai's presence. Sometimes i just want to enjoy R's company, but bai will simply spoil all my fascinations of everything.. He just loves to glue R to him and molest him. How i wish i can just shout to him "hey dude, hands off my man!". But unfortunately with our current unofficial and dunno what status i doubt it is ever possible luh.

Yeah aft we sit and played with DSi camera for a while, we headed over to cp there to check prices for the room. R just stuck his golden ass onto the cushion and bai dragged me over to the counter to ask abt the room pricing.The room both aft GST and SVC taxes all its gonna be around 737 or 748. Heavens.. Seriously i got really turned off by the price. Even if we divide the price by 4 each person is still gonna pay around 200 bucks. Almost amount to the money that we stayed last time for one night. But wad excuse am i gonna use this time round? The price is a real issue man. Initially we wanted to talk over lunch at SUBWAY!xD but ended up bai spoilt my plans again saying need to go T2 meet his dad. Expected. R said come back dinner subway, but doubt it is ever gonna happen. Hope he was abit more like kitty that say and confirm do it. *guilt towards her* i began to doubt my decision to the airport whether is it right or wrong man. Bai never fails to upset me.

We went to T2 to have lunch with his father. A brand new experience. We were discussing on the cp stay. He treated us to lunch. Feel really bad for ordering milkshake. But looking at R's blinking eyes when he told me got milkshake, he finally remembered i liked milkshake. *happy secretly* We both ordered two prata plain. But he ordered mango milkshake and chocolate milkshake for me. It came with an awesome curry gravy that is vegetarian. Thought we might go back there to eat again. Simply awesome.

After that, R and me finally had some personal and private time together. We headed down by 36 to parkway then change 48 down to Simlim Square. During the bus trip, he lean against the window to rest. Just like an adorable baby. So sound but yet seem so light that might wake up anytime. Sounds like a pervert but watching him rest is also quite enjoyable.=) he was quite upset due to Lion Air's 50th anniversary scheme came today and he went to get a new camera. Naise. Helpless against it anyway. Finally got a chance to bring up the issue during bus trip. I mentioned i think fabian gave me the wrong title. He said this: i don't think i even have a companion. At first before i know bai, i tried to avoid those hard core spotters is not wanting to be like them. Spotting to me is only a hobby but everything is not going according to what i planned. Totally shocked by his response man.

After we hit simlim, we went to the washroom first then continue rackying for his camera. First shop being ridiculously quote us freaking expensive. But however i saw a model of Nikon camera that i find it quite user friendly and thinking of getting it. Second shop okay but dun have the model we wanted. Third shop which is Allen's, their pricing was pretty reasonable. Went to ask about his PSP battery also as the battery was dead. I manage to haggle till 30 bucks. Ended up total did not exceed his budget of 400 dollars. We went back to allens to get the camera for 340 and psp battery for 30 bucks. Total spendings was 370. Thankfully did not exceed 400 dollars. At bugis street, i was seriously considering the Nikon camera. It was 200 dollars difference of the first and the last. R promised to come back to get the camera with me. He heard a familiar song that later he on his ipod and find the song. So, otw back to the airport on train, we were listening to songs together on his ipod. It was really long since we last hear songs together. Playlist was: Dynamite, Teenage Dream, Straight _ the heart, Never had a dream come true, Trust You.当你孤单你会想起谁, _, Someone who cares,..... forget already. HAHAHA. But it was shiok listening to songs together. He was totally rotating me on the mrt cuz i was too engrossed in the songs. I sang dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei at killiney as he ate chicken rice. The way we came out of MRT while listening to ipod, on the escalator, walking together, pay money, collect food, eat, in the sky train, i cannot catch up, he put his arms around me to hold me while we walk and sing all without removing the earphones eh deH~ All so unforgettable.

At the Vm, today CA 969 and 957 both sent in specials. R was extremely delighted. He got clear shots of them both.;3 really happy for him. I got some shots too. But not as clear as his. After that, we went down escalator, i was mentioning to him, R, shld i get the nikon? He said. i chip it 150 lah. Take it as a late birthday gift from me? i was shocked that that sentence will ever pop out from his mouth. Gosh i was really touched ttm. I said. If i really buy the nikon camera, it will signify alot of things. It will officially start my spotting journey. Our relationship will go up to the next level. He mentioned. We can interswap cameras also if you don't mind *winks* I said okay~ i thought you dislike using compact cameras? He said since when? hahahs i burst into laughter. When took bus, he reminded me to eat and rest early but i guess it never happened.=P discussed with yx and justin bout tmr morning. Gonna go comb cemeteries. Mr Lim, we will do this for you. Sweet Day<3

*If our story was a movie, it will be a romance*

我爱上的那个他

2011-10-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

他是一个乐于助人，吃了黄连有苦不会说的傻瓜。就算被人误会而被骂的狗血临头，他也不吭一声。睛静静的受委屈也毫无怨言。他所住的地方是一件非常漂亮的公寓，设施齐全。夜景十分让人着迷。但对他而言那应该不是家，那是美丽的监狱.就算家人是如何的对他残忍，他还是想竭尽所能，无私奉献自己的一切。对朋友是这样，对自己的家人更不容置疑。我好想对他说好多好多。但直到他安静的原因，和他外出我总是默默的听着他想说的一切。因为我知道他平时不怎么爱说话，但碰到会明白他的人说一才会特别爱说话吧？他展现“才华”时,不知为何我会情不自禁的凝望着他“演”。他最迷人得让人无法抗拒的地方就是他那双雪亮的眼睛。他开心时，那双眼睛就会闪闪发光，慢慢的眯成一条直线。实在好刺眼。当他难过时，那双眼睛就会充满至悲伤，令人心碎。还想紧紧的把他搂进怀里，但从来没勇气。只能默默的坐在他身旁听他诉说心中的委屈。每天也只能默默的为他祈祷。希望他每天都能开开心心，无忧无虑。但不可能的。他老是说他笑起来不好看，因为平时太严肃的关系。但他从来不知道当他真的开心才微笑时是有多么的灿烂迷人，就像彩虹的倒影。他的笑容是这么的难得可贵，就像一个温暖的大太阳的温暖着他身边的人。好想把他每次的笑容封印在我脑海里，因为就是那个微笑让我有勇气去做一些我从来都不做的事情。好想承诺他会陪着他到永远，但又怕自己无法兑现。因为我们到某个人生阶段都是会改变的。我想守护在这只傻企鹅的身边到永远，不想让任何人再让他伤心。我宁愿他每晚都能做美梦而那些噩梦来让我承受。我发现当我躺在他身旁时，我是如此的敏感和小心。深怕我的每个举动会打扰到已安心入眠的他。他已不在我旁边时，我便会自动起身去查看身边的他到底去了哪里。他睡觉的样子好可爱啊，好像个乖小孩在做好梦一样如此的安详。若能每个晚上在他身边看着他入眠，我看我是最幸福的女人了。万岁！=）

*You are the first person i think of whenever good things happen as you are the one i want to first share it with! *

2010-12-07T01:46:00.000+08:00

Today its another Monday... Severely overslept-.- Suppose to wake up at 10 but i woke up an hour later. I'm suppose to meet my dear kitty for kbox session over at downtown. But i'm suppose to do some nonsense packing. At least abit before i am entitled to leave the house. Yah so.. Went to pack abit in the room and hall before leaving to meet her at 7-11 downtown east.. She knew i was gonna be late.. No wonder shes as know as my mind reader man. Its so irritating seeing guys in green no.4 knowing that it can never be him cause hes still inside. Okay i'm going nuts. Seeing kids around again.. Stepping into bedok interchange was the worst. All the memories of going to raiden's place that time flowed back into my mind just like as though happened yesterday..Seeing thomas train bags and i screamed. So totally lost control of my emotions today. Even kitty thinks i'm sort of nuts..She say will help me kick him out of my mind.. Unfortunately.. They are still on my mind.. We first went for lunch over at 7-11. She had spagatti and i had cheese macaroni. Then da paoed some drinks and a pack of nuts. Craving for them somehow. She tooked away a cup corn. Eat for half an hour before we booked into kbox. Its the most fruitful trip man.. But the price tag is also very de nice lor.. Most not worth de is the service charge.. Not bad. Sang a hokkien song today. When i sang never had a dream come true.. Thats when all the memories flowed back. "U'll always be my baby""A part of me will always be with you" hear these lyrics.. Aiya anyways i also wun see them till i return from my trips.. Forget me liao la by then.. But today sort of created new memories.. Precious memories with kitty.. Kitty and me long time never gone out.. She today very high.. After we sang karaok we went down eat yoghurt and homed.. The bus was freaking cold.. When i got down the bus my spects became foggy... Seriously frozen..

*Seems long since i last heard from you.. I miss you..*

2010-12-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

Today.. Quite a random day. Its yet another sunday. Raiden book in today. 7 sticks this time round. I told him dunnid call me if hes tired. Actually i will rather he rest than he calls me luh.. Gets really heartache when his mum scolds him one leh.. Whole world knows except him la i guess..lts just ordinary day.. Stayed at home, update my dead bloggie, play facebook games. Treasure isle and mousehunt. Nth else. After that at night, pei mummy to library get some tour guide books for our macau trip on 15 dec to 18 dec, buy avocado and cookies and cream smoothie. Walked down to parkway. Went to a sweets shop to buy mint choco for mummy's office boy first. I ended up buying loads of sweets for my macau trip. I bought the forest berry that someone fed me during concert, one fruit tip and one foxes. Siao la.. buy so many. Theres sort of a pasa malam there. Went there and mummy bought some thomas train things for Gaku. I stayed away from thomas train. A moment more i will cry. Raiden you shld noe why?=( I miss my sons to a nuts extend liao.. Went to look at the books. i ended up buying 3 books and mummy bought 4. Mine more expensive la of cuz >=)Think i'll need those books when go macau ba..Cos dun have someone talk to me on phone or msn or sms...:( okay.. yah then rushed into parkway to buy tomato soup for sister. Then go up to giant there and buy ice cream for her and uncle. Walls~~ yah. Then called daddy come pick us home. I somehow got a feeling i saw ian.. But i dun dare go acknowledge..Paisei lah.. Dad seems amazed by the amount of things we buy.. hehe. Ended~ Tmr going out with girlfriend.. LONG LOST CAT=P Dam looking forward=)

2010-12-05T00:41:00.001+08:00

If loving you would mean being hurt, I would let myself be hurt forever because forever is nothing compares to the happiness I feel by loving you . . .

2010-12-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

On this day, i feel like such a sinner. I did a silly experiment out of missing my boys. I was waiting for a call from raiden. He was suppose to call me after his training. ( though i doubt he will rmb) I was suppose to do packing for my trip to macau from 15 to 18 dec. If u wanna hear my most honest remark, i don't really wanna go. Its his leave time and only long break he has to spare. I wanted to forgo this trip. Cause after sch reopens.. or shld i say results release.. I will have absolutely no time for them.. Mum says no packing = ban from going out. GG. Do packing got scolded by grandma for disgracing her by taking out clothes wth-.- Okay. yah. Indeed that was what happened. Really tak boleh tahan. Just take a shower and i left house after doing bare minimum packing.

After leaving the house without my anticipated phone call, i had no destination. No idea of where am i going or what am i gonna do. Felt very lost. I strolled slowly towards the bus stop. Suddenly when i lifted my head, i saw 43. Suddenly this thought came to my mind. I'm going to punggol and surprise raiden when he calls me and i say :" hey, i'm in punggol". Of course another flash image that came about was my lovely randal and fabian's "jiejie!" Their mum said will be bringing them to seng kang, their friend's house..So guess i won't see them even if i were to go all the way to punggol i guess? So the flash was just a day dream. So i boarded 43 and seriously took all the way till punggol temp inter. Guess when girlfriends hear this they're gonna say i'm nuts. Yeah. The pain of missing my kids and someone is driving me nuts. But nuts, who understands? The whole journey took around one hr.

Just nice after alighting the bus, i wandered into the mrt station. Hui Juan's sms came. I had two choice. One, take LRT down alone to Meridian. Choice two, take circle line down to bishan. He din call me after all.. Dun think can surprise him liao.. Make a guess which choice did i make? If u say its the First choice.. Wrong. I took the second choice. Very cruel i know.. I'm being cruel to myself.. Regardless how much i wanna see them.. i won't.. Anyway today i'm alone too.. Hes not with me.. Its pointless going.. Though elder one will look for me to play maths games. Younger one will crawl all around me and finally into my arms, onto my lap. Thinking of those days as i helpessly walked towards the MRT.. I managed to meet Hui juan in no time at yck mrt. Made her wait for quite long.. very apologetic..On the mrt to boon lay to pick jia hao, she managed to convince me to call the poor penguin.

As i anticipated, he indeeed forgotten..We always talked nonsense. But its the nonsense that i look forward to hear everyday. Its wierd. But he seems to be my verbal diary that i'll narrate my everyday doings to him. Hahax.. Somehow i just enjoy doing it. Let him know my daily doings. But think he listen also listen until sian lor.. I'm sort of worried. What will happen after my result release? Might just lose him for good..Without the kids, we won't be how close we are today.. But yet sometimes this got me thinking. He calls me out of concern or purely for the kids? Cus i'm the only one that he can say all he wants bout the kids. Regardless which one it is.. I'm contented with what we have now.. Even he call me just for the kids. Need me cause the younger one loves me. I dun mind. I also dun want to go think.. Its too painful for me to know the ugly truth. As long as he bothers about me and care about me.. Its enough.

Many told me that this might just become a bubble dream..That day went with cm jia hao and abel to bugis temple. hao and me each drew a lot. My lot says that i should forget about him and revert. Cause we both won't last. But i'm stubbond. Regardless what people say or lot say, I'm not giving up on him. We've came this far.. I dun want to give up.. i love him..

After a while of chatting, we hit boon lay. I haven had lunch. He and hui juan both side persuation. I ended up going to jurong point for lunch. Pepper lunch. He promised to kidnap me by dinner. Duno if will come true. See about it later=] this poor penguin need to stay home do house work and some kind of.... chores i guess? Waiting for his mum's call after calling his sis and bro that they're not coming bak for dinner. He promise to call me back.. Lets see if he'll forget.

He always tries his best to make me happy..Whenever i miss my boys and tell him over the phone, he'll try to sound like my younger son and say yah.or when i say bye bye, he'll sound like my younger son and say.. jiejie.. plz plz.. don't go.. It sounded so sweet.. He wun noe and dun know. This small small acts accumulate and really warm my heart when i'm cold.. Guess its like what i always tell him. Think i can never find a guy like you ever again.. U're the reason that make me reluctant to let go..

After eating my sort of lunch, i went over to meet the love birds at the bus stop. Chua poped today. He carried a two bags of unknown things. We decided to cab back to his house. It was chilly on the cab.. He kept his promise and called back. We all decided to meet at jia hao's house. He was telling me he wanted to catch korean air but its at 11 plus.. I just told him straight on the face. If he wants to get it. I'll stay with him till the end. Guess if let some people hear they're gonna scold me being silly liao. I love him.. too bad.. I'm giving my all this tine. thats all that went through my mind. Parents how settle later then say.When reach jia hao's house, i'm sort of tired that i fell asleep on the sofa. I knew what was happening at surrounding but just simply dun wan to open my eyes to see. I think hui juan tried many times to wake me up but fail. He very smart.. Dunnid use mouth de. Use finger poke me then wake up le=P Yeah..

We took 24 down to CA and had swensens. I was just joking about having it..He took my words seriously=P After swensens we popped over to mac and up to the viewing mall. I see kids that resember my didi but not cuter than him of cuz. I miss him and randal.. Let them disturb and bully me also nevermind..

He got his korean air. The happiness on his face..can sink someone. His eyes is red wine.. I sense the sense of victory and Achievement.. Nth can match up to seeing that on his face. Everything its worth it.. what i prayed came true. =) Guess theres nothing else i demand for.. Suddenly feel i'm very demanding leh.. Ok.. On the bus and mrt, i sense his worry.. Its the first time. He said hes worried..I'm happy too.. Thanks for everything tonight..

2010-12-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

I tried fooling myself but now I can't hide it anymore when you're not around, I really miss you.Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, losing someone hurts. But love, it does not.Happiness is like a rainbow. Sometimes we can only see it after we've shed enough tears in our cloudy days.There are songs that can really make you sad and cry when you hear them. But its actually not the song that makes you cry, its the people behind the memories.The day I stop caring is the day you no longer matter.

2010-12-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

Relationships aren't perfect. Perfection is when you and I can go through anything and still stand strong together.Sometimes the heart doesn't agree with the mind,what's important is that U should know when to compromise,when to let UR mind win & when to let UR heart decide.Commitment is part of your life, and if you don't commit, you don't give the person who loves you the chance to love you more than enough.I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!

Dad vs mum

2010-10-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

Today actually not much. Started off with e maths. Do all the way till about 6 then went over to Eunos and fetch mum. Then went over to pick sis over at her school. Mum bought me a pair of sliver cherries earrings with a doggie ring and a doggie clip. Yeah very nice. At eunos, jiahao called and said jon was joining them for dinner and asked me too. Unfortunately thanks to o levels i never met them for 1 month or there about.. Worse blow. Someone was going too..

FORGRT IT KSP!! YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! JUST CONCENTRATE ON O LEVELS!! THE WORST PUNISHMENT FOR YOU. cannot meet him. indeed my worst punishment.

After that, went home, ate dinner and went down do physics. Dad seem quite nice today cos quite pleased with my maths. Cause did okay for physics and he decided to reward me for supper. There goes my prom plan -.- Getting fatter. Went home and jioed mum and sis to go. Mum wants to watch show, sis also. Oh greesh. Whatever. I lost control and threw temper at mum. though she gives me acessories or whatsoever i want. But all i wanted was just her attention. Wish she can just go with me for supper.. Dad just made me go bath and dragged me out of house. Went to east coast ate cockles and oyster omelet with coconut drink. Shiok. Wish we can come with the kids someday as a family. Dad didn't reprimand me for what i did.. He just tell me to act deaf and dumb as i enter the house.. Thats nice. Watch finish the banquet and here am i telling stories.

So conclusion. Mum is usually on my side when it comes to jewelleries and stuffing money when i need. Dad is more on logic side. Pleasing both parent is so not easy. Somehow.. I feel mum and dad is both bias. But they just love me in their own ways and compensate for their strengths and weaknesses. After all they are human beings and they make mistakes too. They just don't realise my needs at times and cannot be blamed i guess? After all, I cannot bring myself to hate them as they brought me to this world. I love them. I'm not going to wait for the day that i lost them then i realise the importance of them to me. Blood is thicker than water. Family is the one that will suffer together with you. Quoted from Dad.

Scoldings

2010-10-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

Its count down 9 days to o levels.. Its pressurizing.. No one else i can tell.. Perhaps posting it on blog might be the best solution. I'm screwed for 0s but working hard for it already.. Nobody will understand man..Ok whatever. No one understands i'll swallow it. Doesn't matter at all.. Its just me.

Okay.. Dad just scolded me for one hour in the room on thursday. Just because i have my handphone beside me when i study. To him, studying = no handphone, no dreaming and etc. It suck big time being scolded one day after you nearly got molested or shld i say raped? But it is something i cannot tell anyone in my family. Dad threatened to take away my allowance, handphone and freedom.. Ok accepted. The worst blow he can ever strike me is.. He said i was just a responsibility. This sentence made me understand why he locked me in the car, cane me, scold me and do all sorts of things that he will never do to my sister. So thats the difference between a child who is loved and a child who is just a responsibility. It is heart breaking, but he didn't knew.. Though i should be used to it since young, but.. It hurts. Who knows? Never mind.. I stand alone from now onwards.

Now, when i sit on the bus, i would only dare to sit at the most back seat without the black colour handle. i don't even dare to fall asleep. i worry something or someone might do something to me. i dont dare to look back, i worry i'll see a camera when i turn back. That is how horrifying it is to me. It haunts me like shadow.. I fear, i'm scared, can someone shield me? Protect me? I'm so horrified.. He is in NS, he cant hear my screams. But he called me on thurday. He seem quite mad with what happened. I wish he won't do anything rush. Sometimes i wonder, should i be the bait just to let him see what type of person he is. Okay better not have such horrible thinking. i might ended up really being eaten.

Alot of things are clouding me. On 15 oct, friday, i went east coast park with irfan and jianli. We went to cycle. I taught ah li how cycle, chey=P Just the foundations luh. Irfan my mentor teach more effective. We were practicing braking, then irfan started the wake joke. Cause ah li braked 3 sec later after irfan shouted brake and irfan will say.. Alamak.. see you at wake already luh. Had an enjoyable time.

We just went bedok jetty sit sit a while. After that we cycled to Let the wind be your fuel place. It seems soo long since i last went cycling. But whenever cycling i'll usually be the last de..i went to get a different bike this time. Black colour one quite nice. Ah li keep banging into me. After refreshing ourselves, we cycled back to bedok jetty nearby. I saw a baby girl but younger than fabian. She just reminds me of the fact that i am the jiejie of randal and fabian when i thought i am numb. Now i know i'm not. I miss them very badly in fact. Played with her a while. She was quite curious about my smart bike. DiDi used to be curious about pulling my hair..Biting my finger.. Does he still miss me and think about me? Randal used to like spinning me around and pull me around running at times... I miss playing london bridge where jon and me hold hands and the bridge and catch them when the song ends... Are these just dreams? These thoughts were flashing though my mind. Ah li's bike got problem again, irfan comes to the rescue and fixed his bike. We went to food center there and had coconut. That was what always what i loved to do but had no chance to do with jon. haha. Pathetic..

Ok we were late to go back to the bike shop. While speeding, the thoughts of jon, randal, fabian and noodles came to my mind. Suddenly my mind went blank and my bike lost control and crashed into the bushes. Not very serious a few scratches. Except my whole bike was infested with red ants. Luckily irfan chase them away for me. If not mati. Irfan's ass was hurting cuz his seat slanted. went bike shop and adjust. Exchanged numbers with someone in the bike shop. Ah li and me decided to buy each our own bike from irfan. 500bucks within 2 months. How to get.. Try luh. cause i like that bike.

Homed and showered and eaten. Ah li asked me for some money cuz he pok liao. Went with him in night dress to buy drink. No face. When irfan saw me he thought saw ghost sia.. Nvm. Usual reaction. Ah Li send me home and he went home. Hope he never lost his way. When i went home, started doing maths. Noodle's issue came to my mind suddenly. Lost concentration. Again dad scolded me. I can only swallow tears into my stomach. Atika told me read her facebook and twitter.. Something happened? Jon message me leh! But is to ask for the number of the kids rather than wanna know how am i la... Its okay. I'm happy too.. even the main agenda is not asking about me.. Feel apologetic cause called him during his duty. But no choice la i need go rest liao la. But need tell benson if we free what..He never blame me la.. Not as if i want to call you after i cry. But i have no choice. I hate letting you hear me cry de actually. It make me sound so weak. You may not know, but hearing your voice is a console. Its a bit weird he asked me for the kid's number.... Knew that this day will come but never expect so fast. After that slept in already. Happy that jon booking out tomorrow=) [though i won't get to meet him till 13 nov *sighs*]

Update

2010-10-11T00:01:00.001+08:00

Alright.. It has been 10 donkey months since i last ever updated this dead blog already. I shall not be lazy.. Will update more often for my readers at the least=) Many things has happened. Shall cut the old granny stories and just update for recent.

Okay, Firstly, i have upgraded from single to a mother of two. Both sons. One called randy and other called fabian. Guess your next question would be who is their father? Okay he is called jon pek. Ok these are just imaginations. In reality actually recently i had just knew two kids at changi airport as they just came over and play with me and after that jon joined in. They were very adorable kids and therefore we were very attached to them. After several outings, we both acknowledge them as our sons offically.. I exchanged phone number with their mother called yvonne. That was how my journey as a mother began.

The mother actually called me telling me that randal wanted to meet us at the airport. But i was stuck as o levels are coming.. I cant afford any time. I broke down as i called jon to represent me instead. He consoled me and promised to take care of them on my behalf. Kids have short term memories and doubt they will remember me. Jon promised to call me when he reached home. After that i continued e maths and i wasn't really productive as i was seriously badly affected. Dad scolded me for being emotional but he doesn't know the reason obviously if not he'll probably get me killed? At 7 when my hell hours finally ended, i saw miss calls from the mother. I was worried what might happen and i called jon immediately.

Jon told me that everything was okay. He even passed on the phone to randy and fabian. When randy took over the phone, he called me by name and jiejie. I burst into tears when i heard him telling me about what happened. Next jon handed the phone to fabian. The one that is more attached to me. Fabian could not hear me but when he called me jiejie i cried even harder. I really missed the two kids..

Whenever i sit under my block and i see kids, i cant help thinking they might be randy or fabian. Whenever i see clothing of kids, i would imagine that i will bring them to buy them somedays. Anything that i see simply reminds me of them. I just wish 0 levels can be over soon. I plan to bring them to Snow city, wild wild wet, jurong bird park, zoo, night safari, ETC together with jon=)

Nice jon kept his promise and called me when he reached home at 11. He told me the kids missed me terribly as much as i missed them... The younger one nearly cried when he was leaving. He kept imagining i was among the crowd.. I was shocked to hear..Actually i meant something to them.. Wow.. I'm touched. talked to that penguin for one and 1/2 hour. hahaha. till 1am i think?

Okay late liao. Chiao chiao!~~Tmr still got camp phoenix. Gambadae~

Graduation Day

2010-08-11T13:20:00.000+08:00

Today, its finally my graduation day. In the morning, i went to mr lim's funeral together with yong xiang, benson and xin yi. It is his last journey today. Principal disallowed us to go to choa chu kang cemetery as he says it'll affect our mood for graduation day in the afternoon. Principal say liao what else more we can say? Yong xiang and me were sitting at the void deck making cards and writing them for the teachers. After that, he cabbed me over to tanah merah as i was meeting jon at 12 and i certainly dont want to be late meeting mr penguin.

When i hit tanah merah i realised i was too early. Therefore i hopped over to simei and get my bluetooth ear headset that i sent for repairs. I was so worried that i will be late and i kept rushing rushing. Who knows i was early=) Even saw a friend from CCSS NPCC. But he had to quit as he cant do physical activities=( to think we used to be in NPAP together.. Life is indeed unpredictable. I forgot about my umbrella. When penguin and me hit his house bus stop, it started pouring. Yes obviously we both got soaked wet. So therefore solution is? Went to his house and shower. Brought uniform and changed into them. My hair was still wet and cannot tie. While he was bathing, i was looking at the thomas train poster on his wall. Suddenly it recalled me of fabian.When penguin is finally out, we immediately rushed off for school taking 12.

Thank goodness we hit school just on time. but i was like a mad woman not tying my hair. After settling my barang into the auditorium, i dashed into the toilet to get my hair tied. Kept asking kailing and joy about my hair and they got extremely pissed with me. HAHA....Pek went with ben and xin yi to explore school i guess? Hope he managed to sneak in. Sharon gave me a cup cake!=D so sweet=) Its gonna be the last time we are gonna be seated as 4R7 man.. Time really flies. Initially i hated to be in this class and cant wait to leave.. But i cant bear to now.R7 really rawk my socks. Sec 4 sparks class. I gan giongly walked into the hall. On my side glance i saw the bamboo stick taking photos of me=P

After sitting down, I went to nervously scan around for him. He was seated on the last row. Duno when he suddenly came behind me=D My class people went mad over him and kept disturbing me over it. Okay expected la ok? We were shouting and cheering. When atika went on stage, my class shouted khalid for the obvious. When Imen went on stage, they shouted syafiq. When Ella went, they shouted sumardi. Thats the specialty of R7.. It was finally my turn. i was chasing up and joy scolded me for cut her que. HAHA.

After graduation ceremony, i went to be a santa claus and give out cards to the teachers. Then i accompanied pek to explore the whole school. After that we said hi to daddy hazmi and off we went to e hub to get my tapz VIP card=D I chose the pic of the card of his and my favourite drum game. We played a game of that and DDR. The DDR there was insane. probably the older version luh. Drum game... we played our all time fav, Doraemon song followed by cao cao by jj then pandora by angie. After that, we meet ying xian and jaslyn. Jon's classmate. Said hi, exchanged numbers and went to have dinner over at pop eye. My goodness. One of my favourite time.

Jia hao and hui juan then came down and look for us. Then walk walk abit and talked. About 11 plus we set off for home. Jon played arcade. I bored larh. I dont play gun games. I suck at bowling too.. So yeah. Before going home, he remembered i was craving for cup walker, so we went to cup walker and get a red milk tea and drink together on the way home=P Cause thats all they left -,- But its quite nice but very sweet=) Going home time was my favourite time man. I was so shag that i leaned over to his shoulder and listen to ipod together with him..We parted unwillingly. But i'm sure we will meet again.=D

Sister's birthday

2009-12-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

China trip

2009-12-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

Alright.. It has been millions of years since i posted anything~I shall summarize my china trip then to kick off my blogging life again. China trip was a really mixed feeling trip. Before we boarded the plane, the trip was nearly cancelled due to the bad weather in china. But we were fortunate we still went. This trip was the last trip before mr heng leaves us for vs. It is rather sad. He is a really nice and patient father to us. Why father? He is really caring. Will definitely miss his green lessons and working with him had been a pleasure.He taught me higher mother tongue in secondary two. Wished he didn't had to leave.

If i compare my japan trip and china trip, both are memorable trip except that i cried more during this trip i guess. Oh yea i had a new nick from this trip. The Nanny~ Yes i had two kiddos to baby sit. This trip there were tears and happiness. I would choose to keep the happiness and throw the bad ones. Wen Jie my cousin also went for this trip. Somehow we didn't get much closer. But better than being strangers? This trip made me learnt many precious lessons like situation handling and the meaning of true friendship. New friendships are forged and old ones are never forgotten.

Those who went with me to china trip will know that i truly nag a lot about my buddy. Sorry about that as i was really close to her. Somehow i felt that god arranged her to take care of me. I wished had more time with her which indeed i had. She gave me a pair of mickey mouse earrings that i will wear them only during special events.I truly treasure her as my best friend kept locked deep inside me. No one will understand how much will i truly miss her. She has msn. Hopefully we will get to keep in touch more often. She is the iron hand of snow. Her snowballs are really painful i guess. Seeing her smack her snowball on keith and with him yelling in pain=D We were laughing. The miffy pink pen that she gave me i kept it inside my pencil case. I aim to bring a smaller pencil case to school i hope=) To be frank she is a really sincere and truthful person. i could feel her warmess. Seeing her really brightens up my entire life. I went to china with a horrible results. But ended she injected vibrant into me. To think that she would entertain me during her lesson times instead of making me feel uncomfortable. She melted me thoroughly. i fought hard with teachers to stay at her house one day more.=) her parents are nice people. I kept the towel and slippers and even use them. No one can ever replace her. I love you~

I truly shopped like mad in China. I bought many stationaries and notebooks and even clothes. It was through shopping brought all the girls closer together. Unfortunately i din do pedicure=( Even bought meaningful gifts back for my friends. Nothing is more important than friends to me. My bills burst cos i was smsing my dearest belles who had been with me throughout my hell days. Belles i truly love and appreciate u gals for accompanying my through my hell days. Without u all my life is no longer complete. Everyday in china i never stopped missing people in singapore. But when i am back its the reverse. I miss the performances and words that people say to me. My buddy's physics teacher even said i was an angel to her. I was touched to tears. It was the first time a teacher ever said that to me. The messages kept me going. From both cliques. I wished i can go back china again.

~CHINA TRIP RULZ~

Fading trust

2009-11-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

~My faith in you is fading~

Okay, some rescent updates today. I have been sporting again for almost whole of last week.Not again. For these two weeks i've been getting back my results.. Results are quite okay.. I'm happy that i'm not retaining.. God really blessed me.I've been worried after EOY that i will retain.. Extremly worried till i dream of it.But fortunately i passed english. Need to thank madam yanti she marked our paper=)Passed Chem. Did quite okay for physics. Failed combine humans =( When i saw my result slip i just passed my DNT for EOYS.. I think Mr hazmi tried really hard to pass me yeah.

So life after exam its rather boring. Go to class purely doing corrections.But during english we watched the Shutters.Its a thai ghost movie.That is extremely scary.Its one of the scariest horror movie that i watched.Japan ones are still more scary.Class screamed alot.But the boys are really enjoying themselves when hearing the girls screaming non stop so does miss lavania.

Went on the duck tour on thursday 29th october.It was suppose to be a program with our overseas buddy but it became a SC outing lol.Mdm Hayati and miss chen wei juan brought us there.First morning was a bus tour around the city introducing abt singapore history and buildings then followed by a cruise down the Singapore River.Nice Miss Chen bought us breakfast to go for the bus tour.After the cruise it was Lunch. Had barberque steamboat over at simei.Drinks there super ex sia. After lunch went home and fetch racket change up and went for badminton again=)

Friday got back result slips.Lavania allowed us to add her in facebook cos we might not be in her form class next year=( When miss lavania asked me to stack chairs for her i did.Though she often screamed at us, she is a good mother to all of us.I believe 3R7'09 will definately remember miss lavania the chili. Though i always mentioned about lavania screaming at us, i really cannot bear to deny her effort in being a good and loving mum to 3r7. I respect her very much. Really.. Guess lavania left a great impact on me.Forgot to hand in physics work book and i rushed off home to get racket and change cos of the china briefing.Lousy memory.Bedok stadium today was pretty quiet.Bao cai me abel and jiahao took 2 courts. One for free haha.Finally today had family feast.After so long!! We keep on use Seah Yuchi and de siao baocai got him dam fed up haha. Cos baocai surname is Seah also mar.The best joke was. Why Seah Yuchi's bag got dump into the recycling bin and yours also arh? Cos sec 4 that time baocai's bag kena thrown into the recycling bin. Abel was the creater of the joke. We laughed all the way from KFC to bedok stadium. After dinner. We went for illegal court over at bedok stadium=) Super happy always hanging out with this clique. Today he said something to offend the whole clique. I was with the clique. We walked from bedok to tanah merah. I had pain but he dunno.. It hurts even more when i see him so tired struggling to come down and he just went home. It cut really deeply.It cuts even more when i saw the reborn gundam.. It really hurts.

Saturday was the parent briefing for the china trip.Went with daddy and mummy to t mart to take breakfast. We were late for 15 minutesT_T After china briefing, mummy and daddy accompanied me down to hou kang to Auntie Angela's clinic to get a flu vaccine jab.I ended up with two jabs.One left one right.After two painful jabs, we headed down to Queenstown there and get two pairs of shoes, badminton racket grip, new water bottle, even badminton pants. I spend a big bomb there.But somehow mum and dad just bought o.o. Popped to City plaza then to roxy. Mum making a rose quatz ear stud for me. Its a love stone.Dunno if will bring love luck ma. Went down to bedok play sports after getting changed at home. Went into bedok stadium with Beng and jia hao. Wa kau play with Beng si bei xia suay myself la. Cos jus jabbed both hands cannot use strength.. So lost alot of face today. T_T After sports about 10 i went down to temasek club and join mum and sis for karaoke session. I miss k box la. Its so much better there. Mum seems happier cos i went down in the end. Keke.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

~It kills seeing u walking away without looking back~

Eoys are over

2009-10-16T13:33:00.000+08:00

Okay time for some updating.. Sorry for being missing for so long=X Time really flies. End of year exams are finally over. No more being dragged up at 5am in the morning to study, no more staying in school until 9pm, no more being nagged to study..Yeah it really feels good. Unfortunately no more maggie mee from the night study thingy haha.

This EOY gave many first experience... First that left me the deepest impression was went over to Xin Rong's house to stay over=) That was awesome! First time staying over at friends place. I regretted not bringing my hello kitty night dress.haha i'm being lame.We bake cup cakes over at her place as snacks. During afternoon, i went out to meet jiahao and other clique.Jon, jia hao zong ming and myself.Jon went to his brother's chalet and got bitten by some bugs throughout his body=( i guess its body sensitive..His hands hurt due to his superman character..I hurt too=(We went to the guardian there to see if theres medicine for him..My medicine nided doctor's prescription so nono=( with my medicine he would definately recover much faster...Ok.. i took 38 together with jon. Went back to school there and took 28 go back to xinrong's. Ate dinner with her and her mum. Its feels warmer i dunno why..She and her brother are amazing.They whip delicious dishes=) really enjoyed the dinner.After dinner, we went back to her room and prepared to bath. After a while, i went to her mum's room to bath.After bath we went into the kitchen and get coke and went supper with my parents. After that went to hers and study till 3.. Yeah thats about it.. Her cakes are amazing.

I remembered clearly during ss paper it was okay..But after emath paper 1 i cried horribly. Studying with clique has been alright until E-maths..I broke down after E-maths.. Heard class say that the paper was so easy so what..I broked down when clique were talking bout the paper.It felt horrible when you hear your class and even others also describe the paper as easy...Rong and gracie were following behind me.. i can hear their foot steps. Yea i run to the toilet over at D&T workshop and broke down horribly.Atika was behind me but i told her to join rong and gracie first.After that i recovered and join them studying.

Another thing.. I lost like a purse with 80 bucks inside?! i swear its epic.On the last day , had D&T. Went to K box with Gracie and xinrong.We signed student package and went in for about 4 hours. It was the third time that we were in home clothes and we went to sing karaok together at 2 hub.Sang until 7 plus we went to food court at downtown east and eat.Rong and gracie look really good today!=)Since i've been with clique, i had many first times... Yet with them its so enjoying but inferor inside at times. It was so real but yet like a dream that i held to tightly. I fear.The more i hold on tight the more this friendships will be gone like my previous.. i really wan long and smooth sailing friendships too...i wish clique and i will last long..Looking forward to the second time of singing karaok

*Speedy Recovery~ Dun get hurt anymore..i feel it too.*

Tedious presentation

2009-09-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

Okay.. Let me use some precious resting time to update a little. Today was rather a tiring day. Just came back studying from school.Today i did my first presentation during assembly n front of the level sec 3.First was physics.Was doing 10 yr series.. Nothing much. Mother tongue i still owe a letter writing.Was doing a sort of revision practice.E maths was up next. Ms sayuri's back. Gota buck up on maths. It wun be easy but i will persevere.Recess was at 11 today.. Sigh.. Cannot meet gracie and xinrong for recess le.. Met them a little while and went down for recess.Next lesson was POA. Doing paper 1 of some schools.. Friday theres test. Before free period went over to xin rong for script. Help her copied a little somehow. Nothing much..

Okay up was sep.Was hiding on lvl 5 staircase thinking about presentation.It has been a week since i called or texted him. Will he text me? Nope doubt so.. Went back to class. Recieved a call from xin rong and rushed off to MPH.Reheased the presentation abit. Not long after, the classes came in and settled down.The assembly kicked off with a prize presentation for the sudoku challange. I was up next. I can hear lots of applause from the stage esp from my class. Dunno if they meant to tease me or help me but i'm still thankful. I saw melanie wong clapping too.. Duno if she meant it.But the moral of my class meant more to me. I dunno if they hate me or what so ever.. i never expected them to like me but i hope they dun hate me.. Being hated in class i know the feeling best. Being teased, being bullied, being ignored...all these feels horrible really..From lower sec coming to upper sec no matter how much i changed i doubt class will feel it..

Anyway i went up presented. I mispronoused alot words.. Never prepare well as well as being really nervous. Really glad to have group on the stage together wtith me or i would have died... After presentation, can see that some people were laughing at me but some like Sarah=) came to me with a jiayou sign..It was really encouraging.. thankyou.. I reallly want to ask class if i'm still a public enermy.. But i dun dare.. Sigh.. Anyways studied with group until 6..

To my dearest Gracie, Xin Rong and Atika:Thank you so much my dearest girls. You all have been here with me all these whiles through my breakdowns and everything. Listening to my complains and everything. You belles are really my most precious treasure that i gotten.

Recycling day

2009-09-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

Today my wonderful maid did not wake me up! Oh holy crap i woke up at 7.20 and smsed xin rong first that i would be late. I dunno why but her name sprang into my mind.Had a quick wash up and dashed down to tamp interchange and meet them. Somehow miss coelho was surprised to see me. She commented that i was rather on for everything. Haha super random but i am really happy that at least someone regonises my contributions.Somehow i look forward to retiring. Group looked overjoy to see me down.They accompanied me for a hearty breakfast over at KFC.After that we return to the booth.We walked around to survey survey around the exhibition area.

Mr Tang tasked me to talk some images to do a presentation to the upper sec on Monday. I am super nervous.Group and me took many random photos all around.I represented the school to go up the stage and recieve the cert of participation.Ngee Ann seem to be the ONLY secondary school. The rest are ITE and PRIMARY.Minister came to our booth.I explained the cross culture thingy to him..I felt brave at that moment.

I felt so sorry to group and mr tang. I went down for badminton at jiahao's house. Abel and vivien are both there. I decided to buy a racket with smack.I have really plenty of things to buy..Jiahao they all the chrismas present, Racket, bags, shoes. OMG i am going insane. Played a few quick games and went back to tamp together with vivien and gang. I enjoyed myself.But i reached back only at 3pm.When i was back, mr lao liu mang was there but atika homed. It was random that he was there. I ate alot of things.Finally quench my cravings for KFC.I look very unglam when eating. Bought many many display items, earings and crap.

After the whole exhibition ended, gracie left with school bus back home doing A-math while xinrong and me walked the whole t1. I wanted to understand her more such that at least i can do something for her or be there for her. I want to help her over come her weaknesses and maximise her potential.Shes an unrefined diamond actually. Its rather heartbreaking seeing her cry especially over some idiots who make her cry. I really dun understand why such a nice girl like her must suffer.One day i will stand strong together with her. I brought her to times to look at the pendants.I was thinking of getting one for her and group each actually.Budget abit tight ah=) i am held responsible for the ppt slides this time round. I hope i can do a good job.

* I promise you at least i would be there when you need me. Be strong and don't cry over people thats not worth you crying over=) Cos we love you always*

Pulau semakau

2009-09-16T12:32:00.000+08:00

Okay peep, today its a really special day. It started off with a normal day.But yet i am very excited.I'm going with group to Pulau semakau.The many green reps went over.I heard it was rather expensive.Skipped lessons. DNT was cancelled. Pek cek.But happy that can spend time with group.

Met atika first and waited for Gracie and xin rong to come down from class. My class ones are not going. Probably cos of me but i dun care.To me group is more important. After arival of xinrong and gracie, we went to buy lunch together.As usual i ate the slowest. Atika had to carry my bag fer me and xinrong my drink. Thank you so much, you belles are really sweet.Boarded the bus.Sat with gracie.Smsed jon and he replied that he was ***** mad.I was really worried that i called him at the pier.I dunno what happened, but can tell that he was pissed with something. Kept worrying about him even during the semakau trip.. Sigh.. this guy always bottles things inside himself and does'nt shares them.

Went on the ferry and sat on the upper deck. Was still talking to jon but he never answer me cos he was far too busy inside his tool storage.Hung up the phone half way. Sorry jon. The upper deck was super shiok. I was worried that i would drop my phone into the sea. Took many random photos and posted them onto facebook already..

After we landed on semakau, we went into the visitor centre and had a briefing about semakau.We were shown a movie clip.I nearly fell asleep. Next we were directed to the outside of the conference room and took some pictures there too. We waited for the other group to return and we went on our journey to tour the whole semakau. We were not that lucky to see pink dolphines. But we saw loads of mangrove forest. The atmosphere was filled with elective geography all of a sudden.We went on the tour bus=)

After we alighted, we took some photos all around.After that, we assembled back to the pier and went back to mainland.I rushed down together with atika. We took 291. I was competing with jon see who reach tampinese interchange first. Ended up we saw eachother's bus entering the inter change together. That was fun. We were on the phone.Met him over at bus 10 there. Took bus together with him.Homed after that. I realised we need to do a ppt. for lower and upper sec assembly T_T holy crap.=)

Random

2009-09-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

Sry for not updating for a really really long time. I've been really busy that i have simply no time to update this blog and thanks to some spammers i locked the chat box. So sorry for the inconvinience. I might be locking this blog and opening it to my dearest and closest friends. If i wan to be a reader gimme a tag or smth. i will unlock the chat box soon.Ok just a quick update on what i've been doing ok.

Rescently i've been going out rather often with Jia hao, vivien, Abel.s.. Sometimes with jon, xinyi and benson. Usually we'll meet up for a few quick games of badminton. Oh yeah i am addicted to badminton once again.During the sep holidays, i went on a environment champion course together with gracie and nicholas qwek.From irfan's class i suppose. Yes.. Went down to gundam feast together with abel and jiahao. Sorry gracie, i know i'm mean to leave u alone.. I promise wun be another time.. I feel really guilty after doing it really.. We saw a few gundams.. Abel bought a gundam. Went down again on thursday together with jiahao and vivien to get jon the gundam he liked. Reborn gundam i suppose? I know nuts about gundams.Jon seem happy to get it. As long as the reciever is happy, the sender will be. On saturday we had a friendly match together with ben and xinyi. Jiahao thrashed the entire team. Ownage =)

My circle of friends changed too. I am closer with Gracie , Xin rong and atika ever since i know them from CCC and they are now my neighbour and being in green com.They are really the best friends u can ever find on earth.i'm really thankful that they are always by my side.If one day i really lose them, think i would cry till i have no more tears left.If i dun treasure them, i am lying.

Okay.. thats about it for september hols.

NOTICE TO SPAMMERS

2009-09-10T08:51:00.000+08:00

Okay people. There are some hateful people who are spamming my tag box with craps.Sorry for the inconvenience caused.Just ignore those disgusting tags that they tagged. Just dun bother about people who are being inconsiderate to other's blog.

To who are spamming rumours:

PLS GET LOST AS THIS IS NOT YOUR BLOG! U GUYS ARE NOT WELCOME! THIS IS MY BLOG AND NOT YOURS SO PLEASE TAKE YOUR LEAVE! SPAMMERS WILL NOT BE TOLERATED.PLS RESPECT YOURSELF BY NOT SPAMMING.I WILL SO NOT BE BOTHERED BY YOUR COMMENTS.

Guardian

2009-09-05T14:38:00.000+08:00

* It was you who protected me with your life*

It was the last day of school.Its even week friday.First period its physics. Got sc stuff so was slightly late back to class.Class was doing physics file stuff..I nearly forgot but i never hehe. Heng heng i got everything inside my file except for test 4.Next was MT.Nothing special.Just the same old things.English nothing la..But it was results giving day.I can make it yay! I passed at least 4 la kay=)POA had a great jump from F9 to B4..My efforts paid off.. Next came ss.SS was boring..Cannot play or what so ever..Cos Ms lee and ms tan was there..Sianz. After school was training..As usual. Was suppose to set test. Quite slack for this training. Today during training someone should be rather pissed with me. Somehow whenever i try to forgive this person, the past haunts me such that i'm forced till the extreme to do this. I dunno who else can i trust or who is more reliable.I know that up till today my history still haunts me. Their actions disgusts me, i still get nightmares at times.. finally i came to my senses. Being tolerant and patient, the passion to help others really need to depend who the person is. Today never get counseled.

After Xun fang finish her piece, i rushed down to ak's house.I went tamp int there take 10.Hes fetching me over to meet jiahao=P Yeah so as usual he gave me a shock by standing somewhere in the middle.Yeah he can scare the wits out of me at times.We went over to bedok KFC there meet jiahao and abel.They were having dinner at KFC.After that we went to jiahao's house.The gathering was decided on a sat.Probably going with Vivien.

After we reach jiahao's house we hide inside his room.Learned quite a bit about gundams huh=) It was the first time i saw ak and jiahao so seriously fixing a gundam.It was a rare sight.When the two grand masters are serious they can get work done really fast.A gundam is really hard to fix.It require lots of patience.It was about 11 and we were all set to return home. Ak got screwed by his mum T_T At times i feel that its a burden to go out with them as they had to send me to the bus stop.We were jay walking and a dropped my maths book and physics workbook.He dashed onto the main road risking his life to retrieve my books. He insist seeing me on the bus before leaving for him.. Sorry ak...

*You are simply irresistible*

Memorable times

2009-09-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

*Happy Teacher's Day*

It was teacher's day celebration today.Slept at two plus cos was doing teacher's day cards and wrapping up gifts for them.Yeah. Mr Hazmi's was a puzzle for him and his kiddos.Ms lavania and ms sayuri is two piggy portable photo frames.Mr Bakar's is a key chain.Ms Pua is a hand made photo frame.Ms toh is a mini garfield.Mrs Chia is a winnie the pooh.Helped vivi bring her gifts to school together with mine.Cos of some council stuff.Deco for teacher's day and arrangement of hall and so on, need to reach school by 6.45.Oh my.Okay but still guai guai de reached sch on time. I wore class tee last yr with kappa pants.The jam band is super loud.Choir is melodious.Dance of choir is fantastic too.Hunt for teachers till i sweat like mad-.-After being released from the hall, went to be post woman and passed all the gifts to the respective teachers.Bla..I reserved a special gift for miss chiam.Its a heart shape mug.

After the whole event came to an end sucessfully, i saw sir luqman.Vivi is coming back at 12 but somehow i went back home together with Jianli and yong xiang.Jianli blanga me lunch today.On the way, i called vivi, she was on the way. Regretted not waiting for her.I called ak, hes still sleeping cos ytd he was drunk=X Chat with him on the phone.Somehow just feel happy.I just need him and vivien by my side as they stood by me when i was in sec 1. Under their wings, i feel protected. Then someone was pissed and he roared at me.Probably jealousy la..

Went back to kindergarten visit mrs nornis first as naps will only open their doors to welcome us at two, most probably will wait for vivi and ak there cos vivi half day kor no sch. Gong gong asked me to say hie to her.She was rather busy.Was a good gal never disturb her. Just greeted all the teachers and took my leave.Went back naps.Pass gift to ms chiam.She seem to be rather happy.Finally ate the noodle that i longed to.Joined the alumni thingy. Have to attend the naps alumni dinner next yr.Vivi came back, so did ak. He needed to rush down to bugis meet jiahao and abel i suppose?He took photos of naps and one is me on the p2 chair=X i saw qiao qian and tigeress there.They are my kids of ccc'09.

Sent vivi home first after that i followed him down to bugis meet jiahao and abel.We took 196 down to bedok int.We listened to his mp3 cos my phone is going flat. Sian i never bring my jacket, was extremly cold.Bao cai was there.Went with jiahao to pick his phone. next walked from junction to OG.Walked quite alot today.My legs was hurting like crap.Kept silent.Cos my shoes are flats.Flats cannot sustain walking for too long.My feet hurts.After shopping for all the gundams, we finally settled in to a food court in bugis.My feet finally stopped torturing me.Both him and me ordered the same set. I loved the tempura.I dun really feel well.Feel feverish.Next went with them to tcc for coffee.He fed me a biscuit of cuppoccino. I somehow leaned against him cos i am simply too weak.I feel extremely weak.My body was freezing under the cold aircon.Plus baocai was speaking crap that a sec 3 gal wun understand. Whatever. I could not take it any longer.I told him to take me by my hand cos my hands are freezing already.

We all took mrt home.I could not take walking.I told him i cnt walk.He took me by my hand.He escorted me up the bus first.Poor him dashed home..

*Destiny is in your own hands*

Utter disappointment.

2009-08-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

Today got back chem and physics paper. But saw ss paper.Pass all these=) happy like a kid. During ss lavania dun seem to be in a good mood thou. She scolded jonthan for being a sotong. Today throughout the whole day i think i was punching the thingy that i'm using for cheryl's birthday card and teacher's day card.Marcus din move house today. I had a partner beside me today. It felt better than sitting alone luh.During POA was going thru petty cash book. Pretty simple. Pretty petty cashier~ Yeah.I started punching the thingies the rest did too.Jonathan, Joseph, Jeryl,Kailing, partner, sarah and jocelyn all helped me with the thingy.Its fun..I was nearly touched to tears when i passed both my sciences.During CME, presented the NKF thingy..Yeah it went on good.Syed was suddenly in our grp o.o. Luckily yesterday i survived through till 12.30 to finish the slides.

Here the nightmare comes after CME.We were suppose to present the maths project and everyone claims to have no time when this project will affect the marks of the next semester..Saw Ian and Sarah's grp on the way.Mikhail can just simply say..u just go present alone?!?! omg i am seriously going bonkers and breaking down.He was the one who did the final make up and he expects me to do the presentation alone? whats wrong with him? Though i was alone, still went to miss sayuri and told her the actual situation after Ian and Sarah's grps presented. Only i was abandon behind... My group simply doesn't care? The feeling of being abandon is horrible. On the way out, Dennis saw that i was almost to my extreme, he came over somehow talked to me. A sweet boy right? I heard Marcus talking to me from the back,but i never turned my head..cos i noe if he askes me my tears will begain to pour like waterfall. I walked as fast as i could till i went under a block.There was nobody there..I was alone..Tears rolled down my cheek non-stop. I was heart broken.Why did they choose to abandon me?...

Bused home alone.Drank green milk tea. Watched CCS movie 2.Amazingly i loved it.It recalled my memories of being made used of.But i still strive to be like sakura.Even he also abandoned me.. In this world really nobody cares about me anymore?later got scolding by my dad badly..

I am the thin air that nobody can see or feel.

Pleasant surprise

2009-08-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

Its a rather tedious day today, but somehow with mummy's eyedrops i managed to survive through listening to all the lessons. Today during phy learnt about turning forces.Surpose to do qn 4 to 6 for homework.Next came mother tongue.Today got higher mother tongue test.I completely forgotten about it -,- I have short term memory loss=P After HCl, returned back to class. Today two group of people nearly fought in class.In fact they did.. just to giv a brief idea of what happened, Joseph said something insulthing about the people who kena retained last year. Sarah was upset with joe and went to smack him.Joseph smacked Sarah.Ian reached his limits and went to the back of joe and strangled him.Joe retaliated.He scratched Ian's neck,5 scars left behind.Ms Sayuri stepped in and told this to lavania.Next was recess.Went to library help Zhou zap his maths notes then rushed down for a quick recess.Next was POA.POA had a test.It went rather smooth. Next period its my favourite period.FREE PERIOD! Free period went library.SEP that time lavania vanished into the thin air le.Shes gone=X Went to ISH and realised assembly is cancelled.

went down and meet xunfang they all for a mini meeting.Sian november's ATC is in november dated 21 to 23. FRI, SAT, SUN oh my gosh-.- Oh ya for annual camp i'm the cc and sumardi is the acc.Sort of looking forward to work together with susu wor. Spoked a little about lesson plan and rt.Surprisingly luqman sir seems nicer to me=) After that homed..

OH YA! FORGOT TO MENTION!! HE TEXTED ME DURING POA TEST!!!! OMG i was worried sick for the day and he smsed me first! Okay that made my day really wonderful~ We texted eachother even until i reached home.

Sigh during teachers day may not get to go out with kor and jie.Super depressed.Chery's bd is coming~ So gonna get her a pleasent surprise.But i realised until now i haven gone to take a look when her bd is on friday-.- I'm so tight for time~

Heartache

2009-08-23T17:08:00.000+08:00

Today its a rather worrying day for me. Phy, mother tongue and eng was fine. Chinese missed out a 4 marks qn.Think will fail the 综合填空part cos was rushing through.English was okay.Lavania set the paper i suppose? Today i dashed home straight after last period of CME. CME its super boring. Ms zubaidah and mr mak came in.Mr mak is wierd=X Ms zubaida is super upset with class. Sorry.My group doing on NKF. I'm doing the presentation as usual la.=D When i went home, instead of revising geog i was playing mahjong and sushido. I'm addicted to these two games=.=

I saw someone who plays an essencial role in my life online for once! I was very excited. I spoked to him. He said he returns home late T_T. Feel sad as cannot really talk to this VIP anymore.He brought me up since sec 1. Mould me into who i am today.Used his wings to protect me. Except that i rarely see him nowadays unless for gatherings.Speedy recovery okay? Love u and miss u lots. Gonna spam ur call!!!Here i come!

Nightmares have started.

2009-08-20T05:08:00.000+08:00

Today its the start of common test. Test for chemistry, e maths and ss. Among all i think i can only maybe scrape through ss? The two are my weak subjects. Cnt really catch up with school work these days.Working hard in progress so dun push me..I feel exhausted already.Being a leader in everything weakens my mind and i'm pressurized.Shall not crap too much tmr theres physics mother tongue and english. Going to revise. Sayonara~

Jie's birthday

2009-08-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

Today its a significant day.Not because national day or racial harmony day celebration, even not fiesta.Its finally my precious jie's birthday=) She stood by me without any complains.Instead she heard many of my groans and moans.

I'm suppose to go to school for a celebration combining national day and racial harmony day.I wore a pink sari this year.Look like a dumpling.Spent alot of time to just doll up with that costume.Other than just the costume, the bangles and earings are really heavy.I wore that unique costume and took a bus over to school.Took 28 so that need not walk too much in heels.Btw i wore a pair of turquiose heels.

When i reached school i can tell that the teachers and some others are really fascinated by my panjavi suit haha=X Had a little talk downstairs and rushed up to the hall.I strolled in gracefully and i felt as if i'm really the star of the day.I knew that my colour was the brightest.Somehow dressing uniquely makes me feel so good.i feel different somehow. i had difficulties sitting down and up thanks to the skirt.The skirt had a scarf joined to it.

Racial harmony program kicked off.First was marching in of flags.Some idiots wearing full u actually kena caught by juniors not 90 45(UGs should noe)...utter disgrace.The rest except for him are so perfect. NCC jeremy was the commander.Next the UGs escorted the flag out after flag raising.

Next came in the performances.Lion dances, malay traditional opera and bangladash dance.Lastly was performance from Choir Reach Out for the skies.A very very nice song. After that we went over for fiesta.Became a temporary volunteery at a stall.Satay and rice was fantastic. Miss zubaida came to me.she said i resemember her childhood times whereby enjoy being different from the others.

Went back to class after that.Went down again to collect my test tube. Regretted not doing a few more. In the end our NE quiz became a photo taking session haha! took with miss lavania which was in a nonya suit.Ligered a while more in school as released early.Waited for Weiqi and Sam Yuan.We all went home together.

After i reached home, was surfing U tube as usual.Waited for Vivien's call.At 4 plus she finally rung me.I went to get a quick shower and changed. I am an absoloute sotong.Cos i realised i forgotten her Present!!! Dashed home to get it.Met her and went over to pasir ris. Obstructing a minister's way in white sands without knowing.I'm fantastic=.= I talked to her for a while at the top floor.Kor rung me when he reached and i managed to surprise him for once.Jie me kor went to kopitiam to grab a bite as he just knocked off and i haven had dinner too.Kor ate the same thing as me.I had soup as no much appetitte and he had a beehoon.He paid my bills=X Touched. I treated him to watermelon juice too.=) felt consolated at that point of time.While eating, Jiahao and abel came too.

After dinner we went up immediately to take neoprints!!! Spend alot of time there but somehow really enjoyed it.I kept 2 in my wallet.1x3 people 1x2.Guess who is who bahz.We bused home after that.Ah kor encountered some problems in his attatchments.I'm really worried.From the bottom of my heart i wish that his problem will be solved.<3Vivien too.Dun be too stressed over friendship, family and studies problem<3<3 Jiayous. Cheers to our ever lasting friendship.

100th post

2009-08-02T18:26:00.000+08:00

Ok this is my 100th post for this precious blog.I am currently in a very horrible mood.Cos some horrible people only told me to set a quiz on campcraft at 11pm and i set the test until 3am in the morning.Went out with family and ate mac.Finally fufilled my wish of eating seaweed fries.Very good. But will be super zombie when i go sch tmr.. Sigh..

Tedious

2009-07-31T21:26:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much.First period chem.Miss toh talking about worksheet and Air i suppose? Second period and third period lavania not here.She left sort of ss worksheet on SEQ but never do=.-Yeah just sat there waste time jorz..I bought i postic sort of limited edition machine thingy.. Yeah it was very sexy=) Black colour de! During mother tongue i was doing a sort of test but its an excercise larh.I tell myself deep inside everytime..I could fail everything but my mother tongue and sciences.Mother tongue is my beloved subject.I can never fail it as i have a good foundation myself.Okay gotten the test over and done with, went to xunfang report.

Supposed to follow PAPA for the whole of today until drills.But during uniform ettiquete was suppose to have fishing net and fig. of eight but i never bring.Brisk walked over to 201 there.Saw Alvin melanie and jillian there. Managed to find a hair shop with everything.Joked with the lady boss there haha.Managed to get everything that i need and dash back to school get changed by 2pm.But nid to do up my uniform so i skipped lunch once again =( Hope stomach dun get upset with me and give me another food poisoning =P can go ask doctor for mc=X Thanks to those squadmates who helped me so much=)

First period was campcraft.Went with papa.they were split into 3 groups.They are rather adorable.So pure innocent but joke so much.Nonsense la they...=X Loved to joke with me la lol. With them make me keep on laugh.They talked alot of crap but they are rather intelligent though.Hope that in future can spend time with these adorable kids.We crapped alot but learnt through the process rather than being too strict with them.

Next was Uniform ettiquete.I did homework for this but somehow i blank out.H-O helped me out alot on this.For this important ettiquete, drills had to be ate into and cancelled as alot is needed to be covered.Too much that within time limit we are unable to complete.

Yup so after that was debrief.We had a short debrief.After that was dismissal and had 2 more debriefs.After debrief i felt even more determind to remain in NP as nco and perform my duty faithfully.

As a child~

2009-07-26T17:35:00.000+08:00

Today is the best man! I recieved two birthday gifts!! They are from Huixin shi jia and scerene and another one from ingrid.Its my day.Ingrid gave me a pair of pen and a card=) loved it.But I LOVED THE MUSIC BOX!!! Cos i ever mentioned to them that my music box was being bitten by termites and they replaced it for me. Sweeties i have right? Be envious of me man!:D:DSupposed to stay back and pack NP rm.But only yan yang, xunfang and myself stayed back.They both are commited to np.. It wasn't part of their responsibility to stay back and they did.The np room was in a total mess when we first step in.Not even a proper path to walk.Horrible and pathetic.Found back the badge box but the rank box still remains out of sight.So did all the packing suck that tomorrow would be a better first training as NCOs..Sigh..Some of my squad people are not promoted as ncos as they never go for nco camp..Sad..Some of them are more than deserving to be ncos..sigh.. Okay shall chao! BYE

~THANK YOU SHIJIA, HUIXIN, SCERENE AND INGRID!~

Weiqi's birthday gift.

2009-07-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

Today was the day that i was back from mc.I was completely piled up with a mountain of things. Especially homework.The stress is today its o lvl listening compre.Therefore cannot absent myself. Tons of homework.Weiqi presented me with my belated present.It was a Jolin Tsai CD.Didn't expect that.Ian mention that the songs inside not nice.But to me its the thought that counts.Better than some maronic peoplet hat made me teared on my birthday.But what matters to me is the person's thought to celebrate it with me or a simple card.That would be just as fine.Vivien and Jonathan are the best examples..Love u both to the core larz=D=D O lvls was fine.Listen to teacher and managed to scrape through i suppose? met up with Weiqi after my test and went home together.

THANK YOU WEIQI!

MC day

2009-07-22T07:12:00.000+08:00

Today i was on mc.Rather a carefree day as need not act and anything.Just being back myself.At times just feel like saying everything out but somehow i just cannot.As its so hard.Some people have some value of usage so yeah temporary keeping them with me.Stayed at home.Was somehow thinking about some friendship problems that i need to resolve.I will somehow be sorting out my thoughts about my furture and the type of friends that i truly need.Like teenage columns mentions.There are many types of people.People are NOT necessery your friends.They can be just classified under many categories.Some are just purely school mates not friends..Some are truly people you shld put under soul mates.Some are just JERKS.which are people who are just back stabbers and making use of you.Some are friends that are good. Okay will be clearing some homework and watching tv.Watched Tsukuba!!OMG its so bloody nice! Okay signing off posting another one later.

MC

2009-07-21T12:19:00.000+08:00

Today during first period was PE.Pain was not so horrible.As having PE played badminton with Kailing..But after PE it was really horrible.Cannot stand to go for other lessons.Forced myself to go for mother tongue.Was having a test.Almost suffocated for the test but still survived through.Tell the teachers that i was not feeling well.In the end just lay there and do nothing there.During recess sat inside the toilet vomit and vomit and had diaria.Horrible!!!Slept through to ease the pain.Slept for 4 periods-.- Waited till free period went to canteen and take a hot milo.Didn't know got cme till eric and china met me in the canteen and told me.Went back to class forcefully.Went back to class kena Kailing scare.She say miss zubaida give yellow form.heard her say about national education stuff.Pass up to her a dunno what survery.She told me to take care.

Took bus home alone.Took 291.Then 31.Just went home and napped to ease the pain.Big uncle and aunt came back.Played with Gaku.HE bully me T_T~~Waitied for papa come home fetch me to the docs. papa brought me to the docs and bought the u mag.Doctor said i got food poisoning and asked me to stay at homet tomorrow and he prescribed me tons of medicine.There are advantages which-I need not settle: INCONSIDERATE and CHILDISH arguements waiting for me to settle. Anti INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE and CHILDISH PEOPLE finally BACKSTABBERS and SNATCHERS. Seeing their faces i feel like puking.Dun act nice to me i dun nid that. But the con is i miss huixin and cheese cake shijia and jelly po scerene=( and some other friends like ingrid and 3R7 some friends. Miss lessons. Okays need rest already not going sch tmr.Chaos~

Project work with sister=)

2009-07-19T06:00:00.000+08:00

Its rather rare that i blog in the afternoon but doesn't matter=)Its 3 pm in the afternoon now.I am doing my homework.Morning woke up about 8 plus 9 as my sister need me to guide her to tampinese. Ok brought her ther via mrt.Met her classmates- Royston and Melissa. Breakfasted over at mac inside t-mall.Sat with melissa.Both her classmates are nice people and easy to get along with.Had fillet o fish with sister.The person is really smart..Green tea also can become ice lemon tea-.-Cos her group mate forgot to bring the book.I suggested to go do some window shop around for the book after breakfast.Everyone agreed.But sister wan me go home at 11=X

Went to times first.Times was open but toto chan was out of stock!! Sianz..Melissa was engrossed with the Harry potter movie screened on the screen=X Hopped over to pop next.Lucky us.The sales man managed to grab us the last book.Agreed that toto chan was an all time favourite.After buying the book, dashed to kopitiam.It was already over 11 but i still stayed on as sister thought since i read the book it would be of some help.
Okay therefore discuessed over the details like props, characters,scrip and costumes.After that sprinted into the arcade for some leisure after work.Melissa and me danced DDR.Lingered a while more before setting off home.Royston sneaked off secretly without warning LOL but he had tution so forgiven=X yeah before heading back home, had desert over at mac.But i never la=X Saw gloria and yuyun=X Okay took mrt and 16. Outing concluded but later papa mama bringing us go out for dinner.Mama got ndp menning today=( But later still get to see her=)<3

2009-07-19T05:00:00.000+08:00

Hehe its 4:10 now and today i changed my blogskin in 1/2 hrs time=) gonna go back do work ler=) cya! So happy with my new blogskin=)

Big day~

2009-07-14T06:43:00.000+08:00

~Cherish who you have with you now~

Its finally my big day today!!Yeah its a monday...I hoped for a peaceful birthday in school somehow..But of course my wish didn't come true.Almost all the lesson got birthday song but happy birthday last sentance always ends with the jerk's name or justin=.= China even said yong xiang-.- GOODNESS GRACIOUS..Always hated those days where birthday is on a week day. Some sweet people wished me a happy bd thank you=)Thanks for giving me ur forgiveness on my big day..I was touched to tears..Day ended with little homework.Dady and mummy bought ami durian cake for me. Cut cake and ate.Cheryl gave me a bolster sheep!!AHH kawaii neh!!Oh yeah not forgetting to thank those who sent me smses/calls/in school:

Jixin!
Taufiq!
Jonathan ah kor!!!
Damien
Irfan(by call)
Cheryl
Wai Pheng gan ma
Mummy
Small Uncle
Kailing
Syuhada
Gracie
Artika
Qian Huey
Huixin(miss fruitella)
Shi Jia( cheese cake)
"Eric"
Marcus

( if i miss out any pls tell me=X)

*Sighs~Even good friends come and go~

My family celebration

2009-07-13T11:04:00.000+08:00

It has been such a string of celebrations yeah?Today theres another one=) Today mummy came home with daddy and we are going to a restraunt for dinner.Finally got grandmother to go with us. =)Grandmother needed to go somewhere so yeah its delayed.Papa is so anxious that booking will be gone.Waited at the bus stop till grandma come scared she run=X Grandma was caught by surprise but seems that she was rather happy=) Popped over to United square to have vietna=) Eat until super full+X Okay guess what? We saw the mediacorp actor huang jun xiong and his big family!! He was in pink shirt and jeans.o.o=X Stayed up until 12am to open present=x The bear bear is super cute!Tired go sleep hugging Pure together with me le=D

Outing with Kor Jie

2009-07-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

Initially today was suppose to stay home.But somehow applied leave from papa cos its gonna be my birthday in 2 days time.Yeah somewhat i applied leave from papa and went out together with vivien and jonathan.

Vivien messaged me the night before that they wanna celebrate my birthday for me and therefor they are all free on sat therefore decided on this day.I popped over to tamp mall at around 4 plus. Jon ah kor as usal scared me to my wit from to back.He made me promise that i wun open the present that they bought for me=) Yeah my first gift for the first time so early siol.Next we hopped mall and went over to century as jiahao and his bro wanna play a sort of animal game which even jonathan ah kor likes it o.o =) playful guys=) ITE le still love to play=) Jonathan ah kor really lepoard cant change its sports=X We lingered a little over at century.

After that we hopped again to white sand mall via train.Dashed over to bubble tea shop get a bubbl tea as super thirsty.As usual ah kor followed me as he is always worried about me.=) But he bought the tutu kueh=) He likes peanut=) While waiting with him for his kueh , we chat for a while.He asked if did justin they all bully me=X As usual the kor that dotes on me so much always so concern about me.Rather worried about vivien as shes somehow encountering some problems that i could feel that she has hidden from me....

Went up to take neoprints with damien, jie and kor...took the first time, Jonathan ah kor's shirt gone lol? So we took a second neoprint.Keep on retaking cos press the wrong button=( so sorry.. Okay after all the hassle, a neoprint is finally produced. Love the neoprints like mad especially the one at the amusement park and the one on the fairy tale horse and the green background der.Jie has to go as her mum will scold..I followed kor and jiahao to have my dinner.In was roaring thunder, pouring cats and dogs..Horrible..Initially should be taking 12 with kor but ended up taking mrt cos kor's mum picking him and i taking 31=)

But before i board 31, i asked kor tis qn that justin and gang will bring an egg home.He gave me the most lovely answer that brought me to paradise.I asked him..what do you think i desire most for my birthday? He answered me.. What you desire deep in your heart is the company of vivien and me right? I was stunned and i asked him why?He told me..Presents to you is nothing..What u truly desire is people who truly love you and understand you to accompany you and make you happy on your birthday! I was totally shocked when i heard it..This was the answer that i always desired and that is truly what i wished for!

At this point of time, 31 came and took me away..But on 31 i was thinking, its rather pathetic that even people who is so close to you that see you every day do not even understand you than someone whom you actually is so far away from you..But yet if they truly love and care about you, they will not bear to break your heart nor torture you=) They will standby you, protect you, shower you with love and wait for you..

I remembered when i was sec 1, without caring about what others say, he waited for me outside my class when madam nora was inside teaching history.He came just to pass me a key chain and go home together with me..Just for a promise that he will come back, he came back especially because i was lonely when i was sec 2 when he graduated.When sec 3 came, i broke down, he came back especially because he was worried that i would cry non stop.......when i break up with my boyfriends..He will dash back especially to ensure i am okay...

She came into my life when i was sec 1.She took bus together with me every morning... I wait for her regardless how long she take to revise.I helped her with her 10 year series.She taught me peseverence and character.She took care of me when i was a noob. She was my soulmate in sec 1 that truly understands me and will take time especially to come back whenever she is free=)

For these two special people, i will pesevere on and let nothing get into my way till i graduate.I miss them whenever i am lonely.Their souls and overflowing love is always surrounding me.. I love the both of you forever~!=)

~Birthday celebration 2009 is really meaningful~

p.s. if you know me well enough you will know who are these two very special people to me..

Chinese culture camp'09

2009-06-26T11:28:00.000+08:00

It has been rather long tat i'm missing=) Sorry cos i was away for a camp. Its a leisure camp stay over at ngeeann primary, from the 22nd to the 25th.Mistaken that it was only till 24th -.- crap.. Went to Naps in a rather tensed mood.This time round of the camp there are only 4 sec 3s where there are 11 fascillitators=.= goodness gracious that means there would be manpower problems..Sianz..Met huixin for the first time.She was my partner and soul mate for the rest of this camp.My group 5 were monkeys-.- But at least compared to the first two batch this is a batch thats pretty obedient.My partners in crime were Yue ying, miss lu, Edenious(Elderly Lai), Gracie!, Xin Rong, Serene,Mi le fo,Junjie and SHIJIA!! my dear cheese cake and fruitella po!!<3.

First day i was still fine...But i disiplined my kids as though the way that ncos treated us.But the only things is they dun dare to defy me.But they are seriously mischevious that even huixin cannot control them cheek!First day it was rather fine.I discover tat naps did not have much changes..Still the same people except different batch of kiddos.As compared to previous batches this batch i consolled quite a number of kids as they missed home.But till the last day i then discovered how muchi loved my kids. I realised that at times just giving them sweets as reward could satisfy them.Somehow when i was in camp i missed being a little kid again.Reason being...

The mind of child is that simply and naive.I would rather be as naive as them and be happy, contented easily rather than now being so upset over things.Things used to be pretty jialat in 2R2 sigh..Its just horrible.Ok enough about all the nonsense..Just feel so lonely in sch as nobody truly understands loves or even give a damn abt me...

The kids..I am a mother of 17 kiddos.Yes they are my group 5 kids.Kids..U guys have been angels as well as devils to me these 5 days..But frankly i truly dote on u guys thou you guys hate me...What left the deepest impression was that grp 1 monkeys actually cheated during the game whichh me and huixin pissed till both of us screamed and simply gave them a straight zero..Ok pretty guilty about that so gave them some sweet for compensation.

After the camp, huixin me jia jia and serene went to parkway to fix specs and eat nai bing=D After that went to take 2 neoprints and play DDR.So tired gosh..=X

A minton session

2009-06-22T14:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday had a great arguement with papa cos initially suppose to meet irfan for badminton, but daddy dun allow me..so i had a heated arguement with him..His scoldings made me cried like some kind of insane? Till today my eyes were badly swollen..Yeah today finished up my maths and went out with irfan and qiqi for badminton. Never tell him that i had a heated arguement with papa.Just wanna enjoy the day together with them.Sat at the basket ball court that we always went cos they were playing basket ball..Sianz..Treated them sago and blue coral.After that i went over to Cha can ting with family over at east coast.Reached home at mid night! HAHAHA!!But though enjoyed myself but the food there super ex..zz okay chaos~

Happy birthday~

2009-06-18T15:42:00.001+08:00

~Happy 15th Birthday Justin~

Today its justin's birthday lets present him with a birthday song:

Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you~
Happy birthday to you woo~
Happy Bithday to you~ Justin~

Okay justin its ur 15th birthday, i dunno if u will see this but yeah over here i wish u a happier birthday the next year.There are better girls out there for u buddy~Its a blessing that u see through her early.Like back then how did u advice me.Short pain its better than long term pain. All the best in everything that u do.Pass all tests and exams with flying colours~

Gathering

2009-06-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

Today it was rather amazing..Firstly i woke up at 9.15..Then brought mei mei over to tamp 1..Since it was rather early i brought her over to mac to have breakfast.After that brought her back to t1 and i went over to meet cheryl and jixin for Ghost of girlfriend's past.We went over to cinemar to buy ticket and we headed over to White Sands for neoprints.It was really fantastic! I really enjoyed myself while taking neoprints=) I believe they did too..We took 2 neoprints which costed us about $6/ person? But it turned out to be really beautiful..Here are they:

The first two from the extreme left are my favourite among all~

~Waa! i din noe i know how to smoke!=) The one on the extreme right its another of my favourite among all that i decorated!~<3

After neoprints we rushed back to the cinemar=) We were jus in time for the movie! Heng arh.. We thought we are gonna miss part of the show le..But thank god that we made it on time.The movie Ghost of the girlfriend's past reminded me of alot of stuff..Some of them are so sweet but some are sour.But they are all part of my memories that are so difficult to erase...Yea skipped.. After movies we walked and walked the whole t1..Yeah My bag kena curry sauce..Pathetic.. Ended up nid to go get a plastic bag=.-

Yeah after a round of searching, decided to settle down at Yoshinoya to eat chawanmushi and spilt neoprints.Saw betty and yanghui there.Waited till finish neoprints we popped over to burger king for them to have dinner while i discuess the culture camp games with hui xin.To think that now i am leading my sec 2s..Sigh years truly fly by..Really wanna go back to primary 6..

After dinner, we went over to get sotong balls before setting off back home.After reaching home, i stayed up till about 2 plus..Why? Cos i was creating my own album of neoprints.Throughout my secondary life i taken a total of 6 time of neoprints..With Kathleen, Jian Li, Yong xiang, gareth, justin, cheryl ,jixin.While i was looking back at every single neoprint i realised that whenever i'm taking neoprints, each time its with a different type of mood..And looking at my face in the neoprint i realised that its just purely immersed in happiness.

Happiness can just be taking neoprints and keeping memories..I decided not to be someone that only attack and defence, bear hatred against people and stuff..I decided to let go.Every single thing if u hate the person its gonna make urself miserable.That person is right~ Learn to love ur enermies and people u hate and this will lessen ur misery.Just love and not hate.Jealousy arrise whenever u wan to own something and its due to desire..Just try to be understanding and the world can get more perfect~! I have a birthday goal hopefully small and others can fufill this little wish of mine for me~ I wish that someone would take neoprints with me on my birthday and during my birthday celebration~

An injection

2009-06-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

Today its rather an ordinary day~ Still somehow settling the details of outing with cheryl..dad dun allow me go chalet..Sobs cos he wan me to buck up on maths..Okay accepted..Today kena rashes cos yesterday apply too much hazeline..=.- In the end kena rashes..Suay medicine finish liao..In the end went over to parkway the 24 hr clinic there..Doctor say must jab me>.< Pain sia..still must eat medicine and apply creamy..Sobs..But super happy today cos my small called me~!!^^ Yeah even met him in person over at bbt shop together with weiqi=D He seem to be using the shoe bag that i bought him=) Over the moon liao=) wen home do maths and pick clothes for tmrs outing=) really looking forward to meeting them tmr=)

Father's day feast

2009-06-16T14:15:00.000+08:00

Heys..Ps for not updating for really long..Jus a brief update of what i have done these few days yeah? Okays start with Friday..Went to Kallang Leisure Park with family..But definately not there to enjoy..Went there for a some oyster omelet then went down to youguru for a long time no eat yougurt original with Honey nut w/almond and cashew..Yeah it was fantastic but i missed my Nai Bing<3>.< loved it, craved for it,desire for it..But unfortunately never get to watch the movie that i desire..Cos nid to put in extra effort with papa to revise for my e-maths which was horrible..yeah.. really wanna watch the past of girlfriends with them..But chose to just go abit more further for my e-maths so no choice gota sacrifice my leisures for it lah..Okay bought a set E from mr bean with warm soya milk and cheesy pancake..Yummy..Yeah revised for about 1 and a half hrs for e math yeah got a bit of improvement for my Quadratic Equations..Yeah..But i found a solution to a problem of mine that always made me feel inferior..Dun wanna say here but i know i'm super happy..*who wanna watch with me girlfriend's past?*

Okay broadcasting next its about sat..Curious to know what have i done i noe=) Okay i am suppose to discuess my gathering with jixin and cheryl online..But somehow i overslept..Noe why?I had a movie marathon all the way i watched boys over flowers from about 10plus all the way to 6am in the morning..1 episode for 1 hr 10 mins..Yeah so watched from 4 till about 14 i suppose?Yup..Cheryl was still as dear as last time..Understanding dear=)We decided on wild wild wet and e-hub..Finally gonna take neoprints with them<3 Its gonna be at white sands..I will definately have an enjoyable time with them my dearest<3<3 Sorry Jixin i slept at 6=P Yeah.. Went with mum and pepe to fetch house keeper after a long time..Yeah so i went with them to eat Nai bing<3 but i still crave for it cos only ate 1 when my usual quota is about 2? Yeah.. Tat day again watched till about 2am? yeah Oh ya passed my liscence today finally<3 Super happy=)

Today its the best man! Cos today had a spread of dishes...About 8 at least?!?! *Gosh faints* Yeah today its celebration of father's day for my family..It felt so warm..I find that my family have many celebrations..Mother's day also..Yup..It feels good spending time with family right? ^_^ Yeah finally chiong finish my Boys over flowes..Today dunnid to overnight already^^ Today is the happiest day probaby..Changed my blog song to my favourite song that cheers me up whenever i'm sad and when ever i miss that particular person its this song that i listen to. This song gives me energy whenever i'm dying..<3 Okays going le..Tmr nid to do mass maths remedial again=) cya soon guys^^

*Updated liaos cheryl and qian huey^^*

shop shop shop

2009-05-28T13:39:00.000+08:00

Today is probably post exam activity..Another boring day lah..Nothing much i remembered was suppose to be on today..Ms tan went on e stage and called all altc participants and reminded us there was suppose to be a briefing..Sianz cannot go home with small small again..It was suppose to be at Auditorium...Its a shame that i cannot go home with small..But tomorrow its his birthday and i am suppose to get justin's gift, my own as well as nid to go with yong xiang to get his gift.Had my altc briefing all the way until around 4.30..This time it feels so empty alone going for briefing..He also never call me after he left..Was bloody worried like mad..Met yong xiang over at bangawan solo after briefing..Thinking to use part of my savings to buy a cake for my small..but dunno if i have the ability to do so.. Sigh..Cash strapped..First i went over to tamp mall check out the watches waist pouches and shoe bags..After that ran over to white sands check out the billa wallets and finally went back t1 again to compare price before i bought everything.Yeah bought wrapping paper over at white sands..After everything i went to army shop to see if theres hannas for his shoe bag but it was rather a wasted trip lah.Yeah next rush over to parkway buy the final ear piece..Okay end of story.. went home kena scold like dog=.= Nvm still staying up to wrap all the presents and make the card~

Sad case

2009-05-26T11:48:00.000+08:00

It was rather a mixed feeling day today..The day started bad as had a sleepless night knowing someone plans to take my beloved small from me..Hes my pillar and centres my life..How could.. Just because of attention again! Its cuz of me not givin sufficient attention to you does it mean that u nid to destroy my life by taking away small from me which u fairly know how important he is to me right?Thinking of losing small and stuff caused my sleep to fly off..

Today was normal went library during free period la yeah..Facebooked as usual except with company of jonannas they all yeah..rushed back to class to get my bag then went to small and asked him if hes waiting fer me.. yup..Sprinted up to the mph after that..Was released slightly early yeah get to accompany small a little more..Mr Heng say wanna put me in the core team of green team..Which i'm somehow yeah..The pressure is on me now cuz i'm Xinyi's sucessor..Some primary kids of basketball came to our sch..Watched them a while and went home with small..He strucked me a fatal blow by saying he is shifting..He actually dunno but i silently shed tears when i'm having my half an hour of peace..

It all seems so fated that someone is snatching small with me and yet heaven wants him shifted away from me and seems he will drift even more apart from me..NOOOO!!T_T i really dun wan!! Hes just as dear to me..But we cannot do anything eh..So i came to terms with it..

We both reported home respectively and i went back to ngee ann primary together with small.. He seems happier whenever hes with his juniors and other friends rather than being tgether with him..In my eyes i dun mind being the third party when he and his fren goes out..But i'm somehow just wondering..Does he really need me there or jus..For a display..But i know his presence brings peace and joy n colours injected into my life and makes it vibrant..Hes simply irreplaceable by anyone..Accidentally took home his phone so rushed back and passed him..so sorry small..

Dearest Mummy returns!

2009-05-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

Time really files..It has been a week that mummy has gone aussy liaoz..Really missed her badly.. Not used to coming home with a stomach of troubles but yet mum is not around to hear my troubles.. Mum usually is the one most supportive of me no matter what i do..Even i get into relationships which are rather wastage of my time, mum never scolds me for mistakes except for those to the extreme..Today shes coming back and i'm so gonna pick her kays!=D

Okay today is still sick due to flu..Oh yea friday i had a rather terrible flu at home..Thing was worsen by having gastic and headache attacking my body at the same time..So yup..Friday it was horrible that i can neither sleep or even eat..Seriously no appetite cos of headache cuz just lay on e floor and rested for the whole day after i sent small small home..At least sent him home first before reaching home yeah it became a daily routine lah hahaha..I'm glad at least recovered by 60% become mummy comes back or she will prolly nag at me=X

So today itself i woke up At 9 checking my messages and yong xiang messaged me the event was cancelled cuz he missed the registration-.- Anyways told daddy that going out..So might as well dun waste the chance lar..Decided to proceed with my plans to go out even though still somehow feel headache..Went to take a bath..Small small intended to go check out t mall together with me but somehow screwed cos i cannot seem to find him..So? poped over to tampinese mall alone to check out his birthday gift=) Yeah nid pop over T1 to get his gift wrapper..=)To think just to check his present itself it took me around 4 hours? Yet i haven get his gift..GOSH i wasted my time..But got a rough idea wad to get for him for birthday liao counted as acheivement lah=)

Okay poped over to changi in MRT resting on the train while replying small small's messages=) Yeah his messages kept me company in the train=)Yup arrived at changi t2 before sister house keeper and papa old manny=)Yup rung meimei up told her i reached t2 earlier than her=) notify old man that i'll be having an Ya Kun Roti there have a set b..I was bloody clumsy lar..The cap of the soya sauce never screw tight then in the end spill some=X The patient lady even apologised to me la hahas..

After half an hour of waiting, Mummy finally appeared at the belt!!<3 mummy^^She came back with laguage worth of60kg i think? Quickly escorted mummy home scared she run away luh=X haha cant bear mummy zao liao=X So went home and mummy said majority of the stuff was for mei and me=X Wa really got alot eh..Got tights mirror, comb and t shirt...But the most glad is mummy got some goodies that i can share with small small^^<3 Bleh..Its getting late..Shall rest le=) Good nights

The comeback

2009-05-19T05:15:00.000+08:00

Hellos peep..I realised the last time i ever blogged was 1 month ago..Okay sorry i'm really tensed up and more of rather..mentally and physically exhausted..I discovered alot of things during this one month..Guess what..I've now someone to accompany me to and forth of sch..

Thats my small small..Hmm..now can say that my life functions around his..As in i adjust my life to suit his which actually makes me feel happy noe?Hes just like a younger brother to me that i can really depend on..I never felt such a way that i can acutally depend on someone..He once asked me if hes a cheap skate guy cos i treat him most of the time..But guess what..I said no..Cos i remember once i said..Its not the money that i bombed matters but its the thought that truly matters to me.. On him i can find rather many things that i cannot seem to find on my batch of people except some from external sch people truly loves me..

People surrounding an individual its rather complicated..Its sickening having people whose trying to like act as betrayers and stuff yes..But i know small he wont..At least hes standbying me whenever i just simply cannot take stuff anymore..Guess what..I finished my last paper today..Went with small small to play pool over at katong together with yong xiang..I waited for small to finish bowling and i went over with him to play audition a while over at the lan and finally we homed..

These days i had mid year exam and i was really tensed up..Guess what? Small small and Taufiq were the two strong pillars i had to lean on for a while just for support..Its just that little of motivation that i need just to carry on but yet my sec 3 batch cannot give me..I need to depend on others to make me feel secure..Gosh..Okay all i need is just a friend thats loyal and faithful and too show me the sincerity and respect for this friendship is it just so difficult? But why is it to Taufiq and small small its not?

Okay stopping here~

SLI Rehersal

2009-04-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

Today i had SLI rehersal..Was released late from assembly..Was super unlucky sitting beside a jerk during a part of the rehersal..Pathetic..Got Geog test tomorrow but forgot my book.Lucky Auntie help me open the door and i got my book:)Waited for small small go home..Discuessed with small small tmr shall go rip market with him for ingredients for his practical dish tmr.. Was super upset with dad..Cos i just used small uncle comp online msn a while only kena scold like as if what..Just cos i got no displine wtf?Yeah but his scolding became a motivation to my studies decided to study till late night..Cannot tahan then yeah.. Bye~!

Snailed

2009-04-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

One day after NPAP i'm starting to miss it..Today i basically rot at home because i'm simply farr too tired to go anywhere..early morning recieved an sms from yi jia asking me email:D Smsed zaidee and he was fine;D The rest of the time i'm gonna facebook:D bye~

NPAP Actual....

2009-04-19T14:58:00.000+08:00

Its finally NPAP actual today..The day tat i seriously don't wish for..to think that i used to wish for this day..But after knowing everyone like Shimin and Zaidee i really dont wanna have npap..I just wanna have usual trainings together with them.However good stuff have to come to an end sadly..

Okay the day kicked off with meeting weiqi at market bus stop and alvin choo by accident on the train to simei when i was meeting Xun fang for lunch..Went to buy 2 pc chicken set take away..Saw some east spring people together with the jerk..Then junwen was there too..Haha Faris wanted salt water to drink so he wun dehydrate durng npap but his father tot he nid that to polish boots!! Hahahaha laughed till stomach ache.Went back to CCSS after everyone finish bying their lunch...Immediately change into full -u..Pass the letters that i wrote for them to them.. Coelho mam briinging us there..Yup...Liyana and Farhana seem happy when i passed them the letters..Yeah very paisei to pass to Mr,Firdaus to ask Shiek pass,, paisei la never write for you..

Began usual training..Its our big day..First was rather careless went to the wrong room..Jw came and brought me to the correct one..Went to change back to half u..Finally saw loyang sec here... Yeah we were sitting side by side.Went with Shimin to change and took their school flag fer them..Went for the training..At first it was Zaidee and me was reserve and main..But instead its only me..During the preview dry run..i cried silently so he wont hear..Cos i dont wan him to feel guilty..He didn't talk to me..I got no guts to talk to him too..First time and for the longest period of time we did not talk to eachother and i was feeling pretty lonely..yeah so he broke the silence by asking why am i so quiet..Yea i felt that he was so far away from me..

Went for lunch and it was finally the actual...I went away for actual and was bloody tired. Actually i tried asking Rahimi sir if he could join us but he declined..Changed to full u..Really not used without zaidee with me..Yeah..Alot of goh fainted..Felt sorry for firdaus that he faint..

Yeah after the whole parade was really tired..Guess what? i left my full u in the room..Dashed back and get my full u..Really upset that must leave zaidee and shimin..I wonder when could i ever see them again..I could never forget them..Maneck vernon and Shiyong joined us on the bus cos jerk not here..Shuang..Upset..Small small came and support me but dun get to see my small small..Sorry orh small small..Nearly kena accident in the bus that we board back go school.. Uncle anyhow drive then we late go back ccss..We took some memorable photos at the bus stop..Posted on facebook..Went home and rest after arrival at ccss.. Super tired though dun get to replace cos FB2 got no casualties:) proud!! NPAP'o9 FB2 Rules<3

Breaking Down

2009-04-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

Today first period had english..nothing much also..Except got really emotional when one of my classmates said that Scs are not suppose to sleep in class!! Eh scs are humen beings leh..we are not perfect humen beings..Next have higher mother tongue test..i certainly hope i can pass or its really a disgrace..Yeah had recess..After recess..it was e-geog..During e geog we were suppose to be doing geog mock test.But i wanna do zuoye so that it won't be that taxing for me..But yet when i opened my zuoye i found that it was decorated with a pig..I really felt heart ache till the extreme end..I broke down..

I realised i'm really under alot of pressure..test, exams, duties, parades..They are really heavy for me..I'm just barely surviving...I've been putting in my best for everything..Monday got scolded by teacher, tuesday got confronted by squadmates and scolded by lavania..Wednesday got told off by classmates for sleeping in class and classmates drew on my books and table.. And those crap jerks!! I seriously cannot take it..I broke down..I ran out of class after geog and sat at the staircase and i met miss wee there..

I could not take it..I broke down in front miss wee..I told her everything at the jerk did and somehow miss wee told me that i was somehow serious about studies..probably i'll be the one having the last laugh..Yeah felt slightly better..Saw a thai teacher and brought her down to 3R6 as she requested and went over to Sumardi back in class..Zhou Hao apologised to me for drawing the book.. Thanks for ur sincerity zhou hao..its the first time hearing you apologising to me.. Really appreciated..

Next went down for lunch..Dun really have desire to eat luh..So just gotten a fries and a milo.. Finished up the milo and dumped the fries into my bag..Went off for npdp..Reach Changkat and realise that east spring was release much much ealier.. Noe from mr firdaus that syazwan went out of class at 11.30 HAHA i laughed upside down..

Time really flies..I and junwen went for flag bearer stuff as usual..Quite worried cos Zaidee and Shimin is not in sight..I wanted to tell junwen i dun wanna go down without them...I realise i will really miss them very very very badly..Why must we be separated after 3 months of being v close together??I cherished this second last training and really stick to Zaidee and shimin.. I laughed with zaidee when shimin was marching..Syazwan march like a model!! HAHA His butt jus keep shaking=XWhen i pointed out to zaidee he was laughing too=) Today GOH its really disgraceful cos their flags keep flying and they just dun keep in dressing..zzzz And that gave zaidee and me more topics..=D<3

Thanks for being there for me when i nearly broke down Sweetie...Thanks Zaidee and Shimin for accompanying me all the whiles time in NPAP..U guys are people whom i hold really close to me..
Thanks for listening to my nonsense and accompanying all these whiles zaidee and thanks sweetie for going through all the thin and thick together with me<3 love all of you..And East Spring Changkat NPAP participant'09<3=D

A row with many

2009-04-15T08:57:00.000+08:00

First period was chem..Then it was english..Asked lavania for excuse slip but she said schedule change and okay...Next was e-math..TIme really flies..Its recess and miss lavania asked me to see her during recess to sign kind of stuff..She was late for 15 minutes? Then i asked her for excuse slip she ranted at me stop bugging her for it..I remembered for the flag she asked me to bug her till she does it..But yet she never give me the schedule that was updated....

Okay drop it.. I'm gonna go bonkers! In the morning, Jianli came and confront me..He said justin was very angry cos i critised him on weiqi's blog..So these two blows came together and i was super emotional over it.But i dont know whats the problem with both of them...

During the rest of the lessons i wasn't really paying much attention...After school, was suppose to have D&T.. I thought i was gonna sit alone during lunch again..But it was rather surprising that jillian waved for me and i went over to sit with her, Hong Wei and alvin=D yeah they are really sweet people..Darling ur phone very very handsome!! Thanks for saying that my baby is chio=D

Next came up D&t..Yes same as the previous week, had lessons over at Com lab..Yes it was rather boring luh i would say..But i seriously think paying attention indeed makes things easier..Cos i payed attention this time..But i need to help kailing pass up her compo also.. Haiz..

Nice nice irfan said wanna go home with me=D i'm happy, though nid to wait a while for him which its about half an hour but its rather worth it:) really..We took 12 and went over bubble tea shop again=D after that home sweet home~!

Voting SC President

2009-04-14T09:02:00.000+08:00

Okay today was the voting of the sc president..Took 3R7..37 give out only got back 35 lol? Saw alot of votes for keith and pao..All the way pao i voted for you..Early morning cos i said that taking 1c1 and 1I1 is suay, got scolded by jamie tan..okay fine it was jus a slip of words! Scs are still human beings right?Had PE but realised that i never bring pe attire..In the end revised for my e-maths test which i flunked..It was my first day bringing my KU990R baby to school..Still trying to get used to her functions=D Okay i'm super tired..cos theres e-maths remedial today.. It was rather boring..But i realised mc is here=D i'm happy:D Signing off liao~

Good Friday

2009-04-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to you ian!

Today was pretty much a boring day..Was chionging maths all day except actually i on the comp when dad when to fetch mummy..cos i really cannot take it without my comp..Doing matrices..At least manage to do some..Slept till 12pm what..Had curry instant noodle for breakfast....Polish my boots twice and it was really shiny till i can see my own outline in there!! Its really an achievement!! Really it was the first time i polish till this pattern....But i'm sad cos there are scratches already!! Luckily managed to cover them with kiwi=XWhen dad brought mum home, mum went to do her hair by ah ma and we went out to Kallang Leisure Droom again.Sweetie going to pastamania with his fren cos his fren treating him..We went to KFC to take away a snacker and a large pop cos sis and i were both hungry..Then we went over to youguru to have 2 youghurt..why must dad always show a serious and stern face to me while always smiling and joking with sis..Sis use my acc dad did not scold her but when i used hers he reprimanded me..Nevermind..i shall swallow..Watched late night horror movie lol.Was talking to aaron who has the same experience with ex as me..Cheer up Aaron...You will find another girl better than her=(Thanks once again sayang for accompanying me till 2am in the morning..seriously you melted me..Okay now its actually 2.23 in the morning..i'm tired=X~

*Today its the first time that i called you sayang and you called me love=X*

NAS Sports Day

2009-04-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

Sports day its today and i seriously have alot of nonsense to say=D During SS miss low was there. Her lesson was much more interesting than lavania=D Had group work and stuff...Lesson kicked off with a video.Next was POA..Slept through e whole lesson so cannot remember a crap what happened.Next period was english.During english mom was absent and so that idiotic madam noor came in..Super irritating lar she...Made us do the DOC...Was smart to lend jonathan my book so therefore i dunnid to do..Just tell madam noor that i pass my book to jonathan and cannot do.. yup she still dismissed that whole class but she dunno that i never finish luh =P

Went off fer recess together with my bag..yup had the same muslim rice...guess what? A bird came and pecked my food!!! Gosh i became a laughing stock=.=Ok forget it...We have to move on.. After that reprimanded weiqi and esmond for not tucking in shirt cos i saw them in mufti... Disgraceful man..Pls esmond dun take ur brother and pressure me....i know hes from juliet but so?I'm asking u to tuck in ur shirt eh...Ok from the then my mood begain to turn for the worse but edenious cheered me up at the foyer=D thanks edenious=D

Next i got changed and boarded the bus.Edenious sat behind me and was playing with my phone hahas=D Alot of Student councillors were not around...During the bus journey, it was really upsetting for miss tan i know...Cos she was reprimanding everyone on the bus...But i can silently tell myself that i'm not any of those that she mentioned...i've always tried to be a responsible sc, responsible senior....seriously i can tell myself that...Sort of happy that sec 2s are here..cos dun wan them to see how seniors are reprimanded...

Okay after the long reflecting session, we finally reached bedok..Its a really warm weather... Actually i wanted 2c1...but some immature kids snatched with me for 2c1..Okay forget it...Neatly cried over it...But I accepted it and took 2I1..Thanks for being there for me sweetie..or i'll have no courage and peseverence to take..Ridwan is really cute cos without twine, guess what? We improviced it with vine!! Haha Jacinta thought of it too hahas..Okay...Waited for classes to come in..

Did cheers and all...We lost the cheer competion..But doesn't matter..Scs we really tried our best.. Even students dun cheer, we did our best to make the atmosphere lively and stuff.. yup so i can at least tell myself that i've done my best..Yup...Shouted at weiqi and jianli many times for them to tuck in their shirts...I was so fed up that pulled out weiqi's shirt twice..Sry fer that weiqi..But seriously i adviced you guys so many times you know...imagine if u were in my shoes..
Jianli..i know tucking in very warm...i also tuck in when i'm mufti...i believe u sure can check ur attire if syafiq can right? Esmond..ur brother in juliet so what..I'm not wrong asking u tuck in shirt kay? Dare u ask u bro cme back tekan me..

Okay the B boys were amazing..Especially Justindrian, Darren Sim and some others..Ian i never see you run eh...Irfan nevermind if u miss ur event lar...Doesn't matter...Ashaf..You are really amazing..really..you defeated so many other schools leading the race..=X I was really cheering okay for everyone..Mr Lim said our cheer was really loud that they could hear from the other end.. We used left pole right pole and that was deafening..Scs we lied down on e grass and formed NAS hahas..

My Junior nearly gotten into trouble with some guys in 2I1..Sry Zhizhong i scolded you instead of jianliang..forgive me..Jianliang..mature up and be more forgiving..People stare at you ignore.. Jianli pls stop getting urself into trouble with them..It will be never ending kay... Okay after that, went home with Irfan and shaun..Met weiqi and bubble tea shop and i apologised to him for upshirting him..He accepted lah..

Through this sports day, i truly learnt alot of things....Handling juniors must have patience.. and try to be part of them..Dun be stingy with ur compliments..Praise them more and they might listen to you..Of course still must noe the problem before pointing fingers..I've learnt my mistake..

*thanks for the drink that you sold me junior=D*

NPAP GOH Comedy

2009-04-09T14:59:00.000+08:00

Today firstly..i had 2.4km trial run..I walked so hard till my right lung somehow just keep hurting that i must stop...Jialats its super painful..After PE went up for mother tongue together with kailing ...Because i waited for her, i was late for half an hour>.< Lesson has already started half way through already..Sorry Madam Zhou..Suppose to collect Zuoye tmr..Nice marcus volunteered to remind me but i irritated him..Sorry marcus... Had E-math after recess..Before recess i went to miss Zubaidah and do chapter 4 revision with her.Went up to class together with her.Was doing Chapter 7..Cos after Pe i went to look for ms Sayuri to ask her postpone the test...Thanks miss Sayuri<333 I was paying absolute attention during e-math and i caught everything.=DLastly was D&T.Went there only for half an hour and went off for NPAP together with Susu

Met Chor Chor, ah gong and 3 others at canteen..i was really careless this training..Cos firstly..I by accident steppped on ah chor's shoes which got her rather pissed..i'm so sorry...Was rather late..Reach HTA only at 3.3opm..CCSS was ic..Farhana never come...So lianna have to take over as main flag bearer.

Ah gong supporting Con, so he went to store take shoe first cos his shoe spoil. Sotong and me sat at the casualty bench together with Tampinese Sec cos our boots spoil.. Mam say 4pm then can go change..i dunn why wan fa is there also, i see him sleep on hte bench.At 4pm, i and sotong never had our break, cos we followed the Pingyi sec guy over to the store and changed my shoes and belt=D Those new ones were lighter and more confortable=D My shoe size was 5? Which was 2 sizes smaller?=X Sotong changed into half u inside air - con i change outside which was like sauna. Went back and fall in. Helped sotong tape the flag and ran to Zaidee at the reserve bench.

Okay so Zaidee and me together with weishan were at the audience seat sitting down as reserves. We were gossiping about the Guard-Of-Honor unit together with 3 other flag bearers from other schools which consist of a sec 2..Their drills are like crap..the flag bearers can hold flag till flag flew onto their faces..Disgraceful man..GOH rifle girls..omg timing!! Goh Flag bearers and girls seriously nid to Check dressing!!!

Zaidee was laughing upside down cos the flag actually covered e person's entire face. We were busy spotting whose flags were flying HAHA!!!Sotong actually dropped our flag-.- and first time on history it landed on the ground.. My fault for not sticking the flag properly...though he sticked also-.-glad that able to talk to zaidee this training!! Miss u leh=X Ok Had a kluwang Baris and left e place.Our unit and zaidee's unit were competing to shout the timing see who shout louder=X In the end i shouted so their contigent never continued and followed my timing=D My throat dry le lar..Run wrong bus..paisei lar Firdaus=X

After i reached home, i went to polished my shoes till 1 plus, then i go have my bath. Still having cold wars with papa..Idiotic papa..

3rd time screaming?

2009-04-08T08:28:00.000+08:00

Hellos peep:D Its a rather rushing day. Early morning nothing much..Manage to ask miss wee about POA..Thats an achievement, cos up till the poa lesson i knew crap about trading account... Next came up E-math..About half an hr later, ShengHan came to my class and called me out for lower sec assembly that was brought forward by half an hr..Okay Miss Tia make things difficult for me..i'll remember you man miss Tia..In fact i told Rid that i would be late cos i'll go have lunch, but i was there punctually..

The lower sec were more or less MUCH better than upper sec...When its upper sec, teachers completely dun give a damn or wun bother even help the scs when were were trying so hard.. Nearly lost my voice yesterday liao lar..Yet today i nid to scream at the lower sec..

But still have to do my job cos i'm a councillor. Unfortunately i was beside a normal acad class.. which the chairman hates me...They gave me a difficult time..Luckily madam yanti helped me out..Thank you dearest teachers...During lower sec, teachers bother to help us slightly for a little. Shout and scream and what ever..Even worse i went on stage to say cheers and made the annoucements.

Next i went to class and take my bag to rush for D&T over at the computer lab.Mr Hazmi cute arh ask e class clap to welcome me. Haha i became a VIP.Lesson was really boring..Cher was going so fast till i dunno where was she...In e end she reprimanded me for being slow when i missed like half a lesson?

After the boring lessons, nid to immediately find november and fall in. Training was going on fine. I was super upset with some ncos today...in fact not only me, its my whole squad..Nco had an arguement with another nco but yet vent anger on my squad..NCO..Seriously i'm damn pissed with you! Doesn't mean that i'm in NPDP that means my drills are perfect!! Somore i did not touch the baton for 3 months!Its like wth? NCO pumped us 30 in FULL-U? But its rather wierd..I dun hate Nco but yet i dun like her way of dealing with things..i revised baton drills.. Next Friday its the last official training and i cannot attend due to NPAP...Tomorrow got NPAP training..Will definately be shouting like crap again..Again junwen will march and i'll be emoing alone, Zaidee if u're seeing this i hope tmr u're there for NPAP i miss gossiping abt GOH together with you...I'm really exhusted mentally and physically today...

When blogging, father scolded me really harshly till i cannot take it..I'm already really exhusted already but yet he cannot understand!I decided to ignore him until at least thurs if his attitude is better...Okay end off liaoz..Thurs got sports day tmr NPAP...

Overslept on bus?

2009-04-07T11:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Bithday Joy~

Hello dearest readers, today its rather a day full of mood swings i'll say...From morning, Bukhari came to me and asked me join back the group..I declined.Reason being..I wanna be a swallow with unclipped wings soaring in the broad sky with tiny white clouds! I wan freedom.I dont wan to be with friends that treat me like dirt. I'm happy with the way i am because i have friends and sweetie of course Ah kors and jiejie with me all the time!

They cherish me like treasure, precious gem, protect me like i'm a blood related person.Be my listening ears when i'm upset or crying, share my joy, stand up for me when i'm bullied.I'm more than contented to have them here with me! They are within my reach and always reach for me.Thanks Sweetie and all cherished people.That included kors and jiejie!!!Yesterday was the first time sweetie called me dear and i'm so overjoyed!=D Sweetie i'm addicted to u staying by my side=D

First period was physics it was rather alright, i was paying attention luh:D Went through notes and nothing special.Next came higher mother tongue..Nothing much also...But this kept rewinding in my mind..I hope that Mike Ncos dun POP cos i'm seriously not ready to take over the unit...Seriously lack of confidence to really do it..

Next was english...I seriously respect miss lavania.Shes not like any ordinary teachers.I brought my health booklet so i was not barberqued...If i were to be the one standing, i would go in front of her and tell her that i'll go home and fetch her the health booklet and sincerely apologise to her at the eye.I dont wanna make her go through the pain of saying sorry to others because of my class! i wanna hand in my homework and forms everything on time! Thanks for giving me such a teacher that i truly respect! I love miss lavania to bits:D Tmr we are going library. To think that miss lavania continue teaching despite the fact that the class actually did not apologise to her sincerely. I truly respect her.

Next was e-math..Started chapter 7.Lit was free period and went to library and started to see pple play comp and drool haha...Majority of them are playing facebook as usual.Went hall directly to hall at 1.30 to meet up with other scs to do a dry run of cheers.I swear the NA people are so irritating...Ask the upper sec to cooporate its really difficult...I shouted till i nearly lost my voice...So tired..Went directly home.

Boarded 31 at tamp int and i overslept..That was how tired i was...Was suppose to get down at CHIJ concent but in the end gotten down at Katong? In the end i went to get a packet of chips and eat while i walked to the nearest bus stop.Got down at market and got a strawberry milktea. Nid go do homework liaoz Bye~

Visiting Kathleen

2009-04-06T13:14:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a boring day but i went over to the hospital to visit one of my friend over at the hospital.It was KK hospital.I went over to parkway first to look for Vivien Jie.But shes not done yet so i went over to timezone to play for a while. I loved playing dress up and dance, but seeing young gals like 6 plus i din dare to play cos yea i scared abit embarassing say i lack childhood..Plus it was really crowded therefore i could only watch and no hands on..T_T After i met vivien and we both went over to market to get some pears for Kathleen as she cant eat too sweet....Vivien and me picked the pear slowly and inspected pear by pear like those aunties hahas.

We took 48 down to KK and went to ward 55.When we visited her, we chat from 6 all the way till 9 till her father came.She wanted to have a sweet but without the permission of the nurse she cannot..She has no appitite to have anything and i'm worried..Haven had anything from 4pm till 9pm plus but its okay..Its worth it if i can visit her.I seriously hope that she could get better>.< I had mr bean setE with a cheesy pancake and a milky soya milk=D Seriously i felt so much better. On the bus, there are some people from little india..cos i was wearing a spegetti dress and they were keep staring at somewhere they should not..Lucky i wore i thight underneath or i'll be really pathetic and freeze there.

In the midst of the conversation i realised how important is a healthy body.Even eating a sweet also permission is needed is miserable.I should really be thankful to what i have now. Including like Sweetie, caring friends, being a councillor, being in 3R7..And alot more..I never went through what my seniors went through, never went into hospital, never experience what a nurse have to go through...Though i nevr went through what you both have went through, but hereby i promise the both of you that whenever you need someone to talk to, i'll be right here waiting for you to come to me.Cherished friends, you know who you are, sweetie come to me when you need me, cos i'm always here waiting for you to come to me.Byes~

*today was the first time that sweetie called me dear=D

Npcc Dry Shoot

2009-03-31T09:16:00.000+08:00

The day started off with a time of talking maple with jonathan and joseph cos i had headspells.Had higher mother tongue after PE. Next came e-math which its really boring cos i dunno anything so watch weibin and jiakang play majong.Thanks Taufiq for keeping me accompany during recess when i was really bored and lonely~.After recess it was english which was exposition. Next had free period, so as usual went library wiv jeryl and jonathan.

At 1.30, we were suppose to leave, last period it was suppose to be free period yupp so went over to the new library.Jonathan keep on kicking my chair and that made me got headspells.Left from the library but never get to use the com there sadT_T

Falled in at the foyer.Mom lavania went with us for dry shoot tgt with Netti mam.She is issuing a warning letter to those who are regular customers of skipping NP..Manage to skipp assembly veri happy. Jeryl keep getting whacked by me cos he irritates me=D

Got over to bedok HQ for a dry shoot.Met dunman high there.Was seriously nervous during my dry shoot cos i was really handling a revolver but except theres no bullet.No much mistakes except that i fire too fast and when i show clear i held the revolver too high till the sir laughed haha it was a really silly mistake.After lifeshoot we went back to school and went to library help uncle borrow books..Libarian cannot find, walao waste my time there-.- cos it was already 5pm+ when i reach there.But rewarded myself with a strawberry milk tea and a cup corn when i went home=D Dead i'm additcted to them like drugs =X Signing off liao bye~

Legend of ChunLi

2009-03-25T12:05:00.000+08:00

Today was rather a day of insult.It was early 10am in e morning where its suppose to be a holiday due to duty on founder's day.I was espcially called out by two marons just for an insulting session over at parkway.Gave me a piece of durian and at the bus stop said i'm scared of you =.= if you both are that scared of me, get lost and please repect others lah...I wanted to board bus 15 together, but ur words pierced through my stone heart and in broke into shards that cannot be mend already.

I decided that i should seriously leave some pride and respect for myself and went opposite without regrets to take bus 31 to tampinese mall to meet vivien and damien there.Because i reached there early and therefore went to golden village to Q for the tickets for the legend of ChunLi.N 16.17.18. After vivien arrived, we went to supermarket and got 2 pkts of chips. Waited for Damien and off we went into the cinema.

After movies, we swung over to street 77 to check for damien's wallet and went to timezone. Surprisingly met obasan yingxian there.We played there for about half an hour and so and went home together with vivien jie after that.

Tired founders day

2009-03-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

Okay its rather unique day...reached home at 9 plus...I went fer founders day duty...photos are uploaded into my facebook already...Get to go in to the new library..Chairs are confortable lah! I felt lonely...really lonely..i waited alone from 1 pm to 4pm...Spent the time with my 2pc chicken set..All my friends left me one by one leaving me alone taking care with shiyong's bag~Lonely~ I'm so lonely~i am nobody~~They ran pass me..But they claim that they never see me...~.~ feeling damn insercure...

Changed into blazor and started duty~First laying of pen..then went down have a dinner which its like inedible yet horrible? Met Taufiq during dinner. He was back to conduct the band=D He was quite handsomely dressed,Neatly combed hair.People if dunno thought hes going for a wedding~!

Duty was at the arshuring~My legs were breaking as the heels were hurting badly....Helped mrs liew tie her flag to the ground and she said i was capable haha.Finally get to rest a little while was doing my bao zhang du hou gan...

Taufiq came over to ask us what were we doing..Cherrie was playing wiv his phone hahas.Skipped..After around 8 plus when all e parents are here, we went over to canteen to eat. Not even a while, VP came and ask us go up to mph be arsshurers to the TOILET!! Okay i dont like the job but still must do it Skipped! After that ask edenious take over me a while<333 outside="D" haha="D" wallet="D">

Escape theme park?!

2009-03-21T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hellos sister today go escape theme park cos its a class outing..Yes got woken up by her at 10 plus, went to bedok and pick up a few of her friends and off we went to to escape theme park... I initially wanted to follow my sister bcos when i reached pasir ris mrt, my friend was stoll sleeping-.- Its so irritating waiting for people i confirm!Then about one hour later, my friends and i met at bedok int..but i waited for an hr-.-its rather idiotic...After we went over to city hall there to suntect..we just walked the whole place and went over to carefour...i stood at the cd shop stood blindly at a spot that someone actually held and kissed me before i went to japan..I missed those...Suddenly i felt so empty!Its just link that someone simply cant remember...He simply forgotten me...I felt that i'm invisible.,,they din bother even i said i want to leave..After that i went to take transport to tampinese and went over to pasir ris in papa's car and picked sister.Mum bought honey wings and bubble tea waiting fer me at home!Happy that at least i ate twice KFC and ate my favourite yougurt YAMI =D sense of achievement=Dokay signing off~

fifteen hours challange

2009-03-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

Okay was just back from leads and think i'm near to dead liao lah...Today still went to school for 15 hrs challange.Okay we were suppose to fold masu boxes..though at least at was 13.5k of boxes but its quite an achievement.I folded till my hands are bent i think..Just as what mdm nora said dun wanna have anyth to do with masu boxes for a few days man!Haha i just noticed i had a big purple baluku a.k.a blue black on my left leg...zzz not again-.-The sec 2s folded 15k paper dragons..Triple science classes and some pure classes donated 1mil + grains of rice...What ever...today its really an exhausting day for every one i think...Taufiq never cme todayT_T cos hes sick..Speedy recovery taufia=(Miss tan made us use plastic pudding spoon to scrape the floor cos its filled with wax=.=You ming, elaine and teckli helped us also Thank you!=DAfter the whole day of exhustment went off to tampinese house and dad drove us all home.

170309

2009-03-18T11:04:00.000+08:00

Hies peep...I'm back from leads camp already..First day - 16/3/09 we reported at around 7.30am..At 8am we checked in and placed our bags into room two.We had Ice breakers..After tat we had amazing race and treasure hunt.We jumped like bunnies, pass chairs like caterpiller, played mrt and luckily i never really got smacked unlike quack and alvin HAHA! They smack really hard till their feet turned red LOL!! Caterpiller was tiring.We played candles also as in we had to bring the candles over to the enermy base without being blown out LOL the wax was trouble some though after that.There was a station whereby our group boys actually dipped their face into a containter that contained flour, milo powder, sadine fish and soya sauce. Its very very disguesting seriously!After all those games, we went for dinner and before that we actually had a short briefing with miss tan..I'm rather close with her as i went japan with her yeah so rather unformal...She asked us- the scs how we could actually bond more with one another..I was pondering rather long over this..After this was leadership training which taught us how to plan an event...Ok it was quite okay.This time ALTC the cc shall be clement quewk but acc its either weijie or benedict=D But seriously the whole sc disagreed that keith ang hold any leadership position lah...Its rather sad for him that hes gonna be the clean up supervisor..Who ask you so bossy lah...deserve it nor..i'm a group fascilitator and game station master...But unfortunately these are not confirmed as the proposal is not submitted to the teachers yet.Had a talk by vincent tan and it was rather a lullaby session as he has a monotone voice eh...Had debrief and supper..After the session, taufiq happened to pass by me. Therefore i stopped him and popped him with some questions that miss tan wants us to answer but somehow i cannot give her an answer..Taufiq said alumni was close as they often update their data base and they often communicate...Bingo that was the answer! We are lacked communication! Straight away after supper, i slept in like a log.The next day was deadful..Firstly had a deadful PT -.- 3 rounds ard the school..2.4km..Next went over to camelot and went for dragon boating,Had lunch and a bood bath.Did the last planning of Altc.After that had some kind of giving paper ceromoney.I gave to jasper Victoria and kaixin.After that i went home with horney basket cos he specially wait for me=D Best rawked camp after all!I realised that i never really mention about my group members.
Jasper from art club
Claire from CO
Alvin
Alfred
clement
James
Victoria
Melissa
Belle
Eugene Eng
myself.

My fascilitators:

Elaine

Taufiq

TeckLi

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2009-03-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

Today went back to school early morning just to discuess something regarding sec 1 orientation camp that i'm not going..Ok we went from school to mac then to kopitiam.After all the serious discussion i went down to bugis and look for viven my jiejie.We went down to see the campus road show and the people there are mostly teenagers? We stayed all the way till about 7plus and went hime.After that i went for dinner with family at ah mah home 5 star restraunt. and went to t-mall golden village movie theater and watch "the race to the witch mountain" Was pretty clumsy..nearly topple my whole ice lemon tea that i bought but lucky only a little bit flowed out because the cover was tightly attatched to the cup.Thank god~ Ate roller coaster as well~Ok its not bad but not as nice as marley and me=D ok brain dead liaos~ Sayonara~

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2009-03-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

Hellos=D cant really recall what happened..During Physics, mom took over to collect pledge cards..i did not do so i went over R5 fer help.Nice nice natalie donated 5 bucks for me and vionna + Yaqi donated 1 dollar and nt forgetting mischevious jeryl also became nicer and helped me tide over.Thanks so much!! I promise that i'll get each of you a little something once i start part time<333 Especially thanks to Natalie..You've been there for me whenever i nided you..Sorry for not being able to really assist you.I promise that i'll help you as much as i could..Really!Had higher chinese lesson inside Auditiorium.Air conditioned and it was rather confortable=D. In the end our formal letter has transformed into a formal letter-.- scared the witts out of me for nothing.. English nth much again about exposition-.- ok to be frank its rather boring.. After recess it was ss.. Instructed by mom lavania to do 2 worksheets to practice source based question..Ok it rained and that was really unpleasent.Who likes work siol?=D As usual went for NPDP thou it rained-.- Yes we were the most punctual this time round siol=D stood for very long-.- Faced many discriminations cos i was a reserve...But luckily i had Loyang sec both flag bearers with me and of course not forgetting east spring and changkat changi=D Yes it was very much same but it was rather tiring... seriously hate the GOH party lah wth...Gold unit some more the wheeling around the point and drills suck crap=.= Even the sir there also say that mass flag can replace them lar== seriously i wanna get gold fer our unit to replace them siol!!! Ok sign off from here liaos..Chaos~

Bye tammie~

2009-03-13T14:33:00.000+08:00

Today during physics, mr bakar annouced all the As in class=D i cannot believe that i clinched an A1, its because i did quite badly for chemistry and its pretty unbelivable that i'm able to still clinch an A1.Yes it was miss pua's lesson after that.Was pretty boring but still survived through lah=DNext lesson went back to class for e maths.Its pretty lame...seriously dun enjoy e-maths lah i think i seriously flunked e-maths.As usual, it was an empty recess..loneliness and everything yes history repeated~~After recess it was ss. It was mummy's lesson.Was doing a worksheet think it was about compare and contrast source base question..very long and such a hassle so never really copy much..Next was Tammies's lesson...today was tammie's last lesson with us...I will seriously miss her...Suddenly had the urge to cry..because tammie was trying her best to be our good POA teacher..But i regreted not letting her mark more of my work~Sorry tammie~ Please come back and teach us again~I miss you...Took photos with her shall post another day~Joanna took photo with lavania also...Whatever cme learn fold the divider whatever~ Dun even catch any ballz~After sch today speeded home and changed into some home clothes and went with yong xiang to Bugis. He mentioned to me that i was so tired till i fell asleep on his arm by accident and i though that i was lying on my house pillow=X Anyways...yeah went to check out some gundams for ak as wanna get some gundams for him secret hor!! went home.At bbt shop had a long chat with 2 of my juniors and had a long chat with cheryl...ok seriously collapsing already chaoz!~

110309

2009-03-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

Today sianz felt quite headache somehow during lessons, took a nap during maths cos simply cannot take it liaoz.Mrs tan not here during geog today,was asked by her to do geog corrections lol alot of people nvr do like my neighbour jia kang lol! He and weibin down there play majong.O.0 During lunch break,went to retrieve the files and workbooks in miss toh's pigeon hole.Ended up carrying 40 books and some files LOL...we shifted twice classroom during D&T from 4I1 to 3C1 haha.Released at 4.15pm and went over with shiyong over to the basketball court to see the station masters of the sec 1 orientation camp try out the games.It was simply a comedy.Justin laughed till he fell on the ground lol? When oscar came back, Irfan bought me a police handphone strap from the police heritage that oscar went for=D So sweet right?Be envious of me as a senior get good treatment ok?=DAnyways..Waited for Irfan to finish Javlin practice, while waiting, played with jianli, yong xiang and justin 21 points=D And i won! 3 times 21 points and 1 time straight two aces. Think ak you brought luck to me by signing on the card box surface=D Anyways..yupps irfan complained that training was tough..i wish you get into sports day my dearest junior=D I treated him to rose drink and some kindaf chips to reward him for his hardwork.Took bus with him and yong xiang back home.We missed the stop and had to walk back.LOL We 3 are uniform group horny basket hahahaha!!Sorry for testing you justin, should not reprimand you when you are a patient so sorry should not test you..i'm so sorry...Anyway take care of your own body..Speedy recovery Justin.....Take care Jianli..

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2009-03-12T08:08:00.000+08:00

Heys peeps~Today was an early ending day for me surpposingly but my off day is gone cos mr heng wan me go NEA with him for a project meeting=D My fate as a responsible green movement rep=X Ok so met him at around2.30pm liddat..Waited for 2 of other green reps from 2R7 and together we went NEA.Ok it was 25 stories high...ok i was so busy combing my hair at the mirror till i really thought that going to 25 storey was fast =O Lame talk ok...Met miss deepa naps teacher..She brought two chubby juniors wiv her cos mrs phram cant make it haha.ok the talk its like a primary sch kid talk lah...Boring..Went home..Feeling tired right now..Chao liao~

Kallang Leisure Park KFC?

2009-03-08T09:34:00.000+08:00

Today was rather an ordinary day that i never go out. So bloody bored haha stayed just at home. Very bored so just surfed net and all the nonsense.Watched princess hour till i cried pathetically lol tell papa that i wanna eat KFC, in the end went to leisure doom there eat.Went over to eat.Papa paid money.I ate 3 pcs chicken.After that went to watch marley and me.Cried even worse when marley died..Its like crying like as if someone died.Mummy commented that it was the reason she dun allow me to keep animals.After the movie ended it was already 12 plus.Slept at one plus..Short and random post~Ok signing off..Bye

SS, EG result release

2009-03-07T14:58:00.000+08:00

Today seriously a lot of things happened...First period was chem.Miss Pua was the teacher. Pretty surprised that the class would stay quiet when a NIE teacher actually teaches..Okay it was rather boring i would say.. Second period was..POA. Sian had POA test..Think gonna flunk..whatever don't really care..After POA it was e-math.It was a surprise test and nvr study..confirm flunk..whatever i expected anyways.Had recess.Jonathan yap bought 4 apple aloe vera..Crazy guy right? Had ss after that.I passed my ss=D got 17/25 not bad right=DGeog was 16/30 haha pass by 1 mark. Expected to fail de LOL=D During ss we had mass place swooping. I was demoted from first row to 4th row lol.Sharrisse is my neightbour on my right instead of KaiLing now..I'll miss your disturbings kailing=D thou you sitting just two column apart from me haha.Neightbour at the side is Tan Jia Kang and Jeryl Goh LOL surrounded by guys.Behind me its Sumardi and Joanna.=D think Joanna has Sumardi phobia...HAHA will be damn noisy in future=D Anyway went for NPDP today as per normal went for NPDP and had a test if we're in the condition that we're unprepared.. Junwen as expected became the actual flag bearer and me being reserve.Ahadi from Loyang and Shimin became a reserve and gone in repectively.Ahadi and me enjoyed each other's company. The feeling of being reserve seriously suck! Its a backup for somebody...Ahadi and me had simply no mood to really give our best because we reserve.. Thou sir said we had chances to replace those actual ones but i feel that the chance its almost zero.I became someone's third wife haha. Okay sian home sweet home after that...Bye signing off~

Results released

2009-03-06T13:46:00.000+08:00

hellos guys, today was one of the most consoled day i ever had. I felt that all the scarifices that i've made and everything its all worth it.=D During ss, ms lavania wasn't here, we just did some of the questions that she left for us...During POA just bear with miss chng's boring lesson as usual..english was taken over by another teacher which set us vocab book but dun feel like doing so never do lah...After recess was quite surprised! Went for physics and got an A1 for my paper^^ 30/40 but my chem was abit surprising i got 24/40 this time round...not enough studying i know..will work harder, glad that at least i never fail my chem=D After chem, it was cme but the class was in chaos.It was freaking irritating cos class was damn damn noisy.After chairman's several shouting and screaming, the jersery was black and gold, its Addidas.After that, released ealier and went over to mac and coach jianli write compo.Ended up waiting for him about half an hour and helping him write his compo sample.Helped him write his compo first paragraph hahas.After that, rushed home and relaxed myself.Did what am i suppose to do and bye signing off liao going lalala land liaoz~

Crying day~

2009-03-05T14:33:00.000+08:00

It was just an ordinary begaining..I dao people which made me feel extremly miserable but i have to because i was forced to a corner..I dont think the people will even feel a single thing even i ignore them...Forget it man..i still feel something..but its not as much as the 8th of january already..i decided to seriously learn to let go already...i know that you are there for me always right=D? Had lessons today..I pity miss sayuri..She lost her voice she still had to teach us maths.. Miss Sayuri speedy recovery!=(During PE, Hamka represented our class for the beep test deomtration. He achieved level 10 beep 5.He was the most fit.He won Bryan Chua from 2c2 amd kelvin from 3R3.Kailing myself, Jonathan yap, Sharisse and syuhada played badminton together. I simply dun understand the Inequalities because i think when teacher was teaching i simply not concentrating and dun even catch any thing..Anyways..today have to clear our tables as we're shifting classrooms...sobs classroom will be so far from jianli and lower sec >.< Brought every single of my books home and its 10kg i think...i cried during D&T....did not really concentrate during the lesson...sorry mr hazmi.. Thank you Kailing...thanks for patting my shoulder when i felt the most depressed..Thanks mr hazmi for being concern about me=D The reason was somebody vandalised my fabric bag that one of my primary school friend got for me... After school, went to see mum together with all the HCL pple aand after that settle for sc stuff.Filled in a form and off i went home. Saw qian huey sharisse and xunfang over at the bus stop. Miss Chng became my debtor=D Cos she borrowed 50 cents from me cos she nvr bring her ez link card hahas.Got many cuts due to my files cutting me..wth..ok shall end off here~ I just feel rather worried as ah kor has a flu....Speedy recovery ah kor=D

NP flag stuff extra training

2009-03-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

Okay its rather a tiring day...This day started with a surprise..Miss Lavania will be taking over the student councillors..o.o shes my form mum, sc teacher, ss teacher, english teacher, as well as npcc mum. Will be seeing her even more frequently o.0 Had a surprise english compo test nor today.. Got drenched till a rather pathatic state when on way going fer recess but went to drink two cups of milo. They were icy cold but not as ice frozen as my heart.I got to know that i failed my first chinese test in history?! Was feeling quite down for the rest of the day but it was left unsaid. Tried my best to act normal and dun think any1 noticed my hidden sorrows...During break, Jianli came to me telling me that he was feeling rather unwell..Told yong xiang to get some medicine back for him but he told justin and some maroons did not allowed justin to go out to get medicine..I would rather you stand up for urself and stop being a puppet of that person!!! I was urtterly disappointed with someone.I decided to skip my D&T and dash out to t mall in the drizzling rain.I am willing, though i know i might even get a yellow form fer it.Jianli's health was at stake and he was in pain! I seriously cannot bear him to see him suffer!After i passed him the medicine, i went back to class. Mr hazmi did not blame me or anything, i just passed my D&T. Cos of Jianli's condition, i was rather worried and could not really concentrate in class just now.. Straight away after we were dismissed, i was the first person to leave class and went straight to 1R4 and discovered that they did abandoned me which i expected things to be this way.. But i just wanna ask.. is it fair to me that i'm always abandoned by everyone always? After training also like that..During training ignored my existance completely...Shld have gotten used to it liaoz but still somehow feel that i am just thin air to everyone that everyone cannot see cannot feel. I still feel hurt over that serious..But i wont let myself get hurt anymore! I wan to make things clear that i'm something that is exixtent on Earth that u can see me and of equal status with you! Its useless treating someone nice its because the person that you are treating you good how are they treating you in return?! LIKE SHIT! Compensate me? BULL SHIT! Treat me like close friend?! BULL SHIT!! YOU ABANDONED ME! You made me heartache! You are so realistic! Unless you need me for something or i'm just purely water vapour.Can you tell me why?Afraid to go into KFC cos you are with me and that will downgrade you right? it will disgrace you right? OK! i'm all alone..seriously you every time will be telling me you are remoseful over things but are you?! You say you care about me and made me feel that i really do mean at least something to you but i made a grave mistake! U just live off me and in fact i'm just a tool! You do not even care a hoot about my life and death! Refer to this to know what is the friend i truly need is this......Forget it..so emotional now...Ah kor... Ah kor i'm missing you and vivien badly....... cos i know you both will never treat me this way...nevermind Campcraft training was not bad..Missed normal trainings..i realised i missed so many trainings after i go for NPDP...Cannot even attend sec 1 orientation cos of LEADS for leaders?! My elbow got sliced by the tree branch..After cc training, waited for Irfan to finsish sports day training as he is taking part for Javlin^^and we both went home together..Irfan treated me to snack! Thank you and i'm rooting for you junior! Add oil sports lover!^^ Zhou called me fat during training but i treated it as normal teasing and ignored..When he needed tissue i giv him, he apologised to me...i felt so touched.. really... bye calling it off a day!

Last common test?

2009-03-03T15:56:00.000+08:00

Okay today was the last day of common test and finally there was a day of freedom. Was feeling rather unwell as i spent the whole night yesterday studying without resting and had a really serious headache during the test.After the 3 in a row test finish, my heart really at least not felt so pressurized and yes we had one last e- math lesson before we had our free period at the library. Could not really conentrate in e math as really not feeling well...Chapter 3 homework due on friday..Sian haven even started..But the library part was really the joke..Some picx and vids for views hahas...

~A short clip of Jeryl and Weibin playing~

~Smack!~

Okay assembly program today was sucky but before assembly talked to ms lavania over mrs gloria tan and all..Shes right..we should prove that idiot psyco teacher wrong that pure students are definately better than us by nature..Mum was right that the worst and irks a cher the most its that take the grades and throw at her face.Seriously wanna take grades and throw at gorilla's face next term, dun think this term can make it.Gorilla caused tension between her and our class as she did not tell our class that monsoon forest was gonna come out and now shes the class enermy lol? Okay went home with weiqi after assembly and damien. Weiqi claims he was thirsty after trip so i blanja him strawberry ice blend as treated me to french fried at mac before=D Quite a good senior right?=D

~My strawberry milk tea + his strawberry ice blend~

Okay lame we are strawberry lovers. I start to miss meimei already..How i wish shes here and fight the table with me and jokes with me...And p.s* thanks natalie for ur panadol this morning, it relieved abit of my ache*=D<333 Sians tomorrow NP got extra training for flag stuff~ Need to prepare liao signing off from here cya~

~Happy birthday ah kor=D

2009-03-02T11:01:00.000+08:00

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST & NOBLE AH KOR!!~

Today its the birthday of my dearest and noble Jonathan ah kor=D This day of last year, i was spending with him playing pool and bowling over at marina square.But this year i'm stuck at home studying and it will never end.Really wished that i can at least spend this 18th Significant birthday together with you but i have common test i'm so sorry will try and make it up to you soon.I always enjoyed myself whenever i'm with you as well as vivien.You both brighten my emotional life. Birthday star, missed you exceptionally today...You doted on me as though i am your biological sister, buy drinks for me whenever i'm thirsty, wait up for me whenever my lessons end late. I spend your big day studying..i went out only 2 hrs slight relax with my family for youghurt and a decent dinner.After that, begain studying at 11 again and never slept in for the whole night.. Ah kor sorry that i spent ur birthday studying the whole night without sleeping. Promise you that will get you a nice belated birthday gift and card=D <333

Ah kor pre bd celebration

2009-03-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i slept about 11 plus and woke up around 8.45am. Readers would be wondering that i must be nuts right? Nope i am perfectly normal.I woke up so early as i was meeting vivien over at the bubble tea shop at 9.30am and therefore i do need some time to prepare what..=D Yes after meeting Vivien, the two of us made our way over to Jia Hao's house which is located at near Bedok Stadium. Took bus 31 there.After we arrived at Jia Hao's house, we played taiki.Jia hao and abel ganged up against me and vivien ended up bullying usT_T. After 4 games, we popped over to Tampinese Safra there meet my poor ah kor who waited for us for quite long..Sorry my dear ah kor..We played a total of 5 games and ah kor paid for everything=X thank you very much=D I ended up only sparing for only once. The score was Ah kor, vivien, me, Abel,Jia Hao. Jiahao was such a joker that he took a 4 pound ball which was for a baby to bowl lol?! His max point was 27 o.o...Jiahao totally wasted the game that ak paid for him..haiz..waste money nia la.. After the game was over, vivien and me departed straight home.It drizzled quite heavily.Ah kor despite getting in the rain, he still sent us to the bus- stop and got double wet when going back to meet jiahao and abel. Most blessed thing in my life is to meet this ak..Because of him, everything renewrd=DSuch a noble ah kor=D Asked Jia Hao to snapp a pic of the 4 of us=D

~Me, Vivien, Abel and Jonathan Ah kor=D~
~Like Siblings?~

After i arrived at the market, i bought 2 bubble tea and home sweet home~

After a while of revision, meimei came back from band. Shes having a camp for 3 days and she was still short of some undergarments and some craps.Today was actually quite a tired day fer me. I brought my maid downstairs just to buy a drink..But after i told my mum about that time she asked me to buy a phone and keep the box secretly fer her and she kneel down and stuff..Seriously mum told me that she was just acting in front of me and gaining my trust and that seriously made me think that i trusted the wrong person.I feel rather tired emotionally as well as physically..Why are there such people that are out to make use of me? Am i just that type of person whose so soft hearted?..Mum is right..I'm indeed too soft hearted..But i just feel the safest with my family.After buying everything that mei nid, we went to swensens and had a late dinner.After that we went straight home.I requested mum to bring me to the gods and ask about people surrounding me..Its just simply unbearable..As in the pain that being made used of..At this moment i donno why i miss ah kor exceptionally..Think its cos hes the only person who does not make use of me and truly dotes on me other than my family..My friends are simply out to just make used of me just like a tool and dun even give a hoot about my physical and mental.. Haiz.emotional night~

Night Family outing?

2009-03-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

After a while of revision, meimei came back from band. Shes having a camp for 3 days and she was still short of some undergarments and some craps.Today was actually quite a tired day fer me. I brought my maid downstairs just to buy a drink..But after i told my mum about that time she asked me to buy a phone and keep the box secretly fer her and she kneel down and stuff..Seriously mum told me that she was just acting in front of me and gaining my trust and that seriously made me think that i trusted the wrong person.I feel rather tired emotionally as well as physically..Why are there such people that are out to make use of me? Am i just that type of person whose so soft hearted?..Mum is right..I'm indeed too soft hearted..But i just feel the safest with my family.After buying everything that mei nid, we went to swensens and had a late dinner.After that we went straight home.I requested mum to bring me to the gods and ask about people surrounding me..Its just simply unbearable..As in the pain that being made used of..At this moment i donno why i miss ah kor exceptionally..Think its cos hes the only person who does not make use of me and truly dotes on me other than my family..My friends are simply out to just make used of me just like a tool and dun even give a hoot about my physical and mental.. Haiz.emotional night~

Darling birthday^^

2009-02-28T15:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST JILLIAN DARLING<333^^

Okay today its the birthday of my dearest Jillian darling=D Congratulations to you my dear=D so sorry that never give you a birthday gift cos i'm broke=( but will ensure you a belated one=D Anyways today had Chinese and geog common test and got a feeling that i will fail geog and part of the reason its that the teacher never told us about the question! Haiz anyway whole class was upset about this and especially when they heard that geog teacher commented us which reflected badly on my class to the classes who take pure sciences..Are we that lousy even?! Our class were discussing about this during the free period that miss lavania is not here today...Anyway today just flew pass so fast.After school met darling and gave her a hug for birthday<333..My drills are not up to standard and i know..My squadmate told me also and i felt so bad..Even squadmate also say that as though i wanted it to be this way..Its because i simply cannot execute them well as you okay? Sir also commented..Whatever..squadmate and sir.. zzz My drills are simply not up to standard...i'm depressed because everything is starting to go wrong for me..But i simply bear with the nonsense and finally when training ended i chiong over to bedok mrt after taking my rations and settled some urgent nature's call in the toilet.Met Ah kor, Jiahao and Abel and they made my day.Jiahao looked more mature and tall but still has a pea brain, whole abel too is more mature and has less pimples=D My dearest ah kor is still as handsome thou no much diff=D. 3 of us walked a long way and ak and me had yong tau foo together.After proper meal, i had a long chat with him. Hes just the best guy that i ever met in my whole life..when i'm down he will be there for me to throw darts.When i said i ate alone during recess, he volunteers to come back in his hols during my recess just to accompany me for recess?! And he even wished time could turn back such that hes there always to accompany and help me...Seriously i was extremly touched till i was near to tears..I would delicate a song for him - Imagine me without you by jaci-velasquez..I'm simply blessed to have him by my side...If next time i can create an award, i'll create the best brother for him!!He was the one who changed my life entirely..Without him i'll still an emotional girl..With him always by my side seriously nobody can ever compare themself with him cos they are no match! You are simply the best guy i ever met ak.After all the long chats, Ak waited for 16 with me and watched me board the bus just like my guardian angel=D.He truly dotes on me very very much just like i'm his blood related sister..No one will ever treat me as nice as him=D And after seeing me board the bus, he rushed for his bus 14 and went on home~=D

Drenched

2009-02-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

Today okay firstly lessons were quite boring..But chem test and English was okay except that i was half asleep when i was doing the paper=X Okay last lesson belongs to Lavania and we were released ealier from CME today cos shes absent lol?i chionged home straight after going to t mart with someone,but somehow was drenched in the rain as it was raining cats and dogs today...Was seriously completely wet.Had a feast of fried junkies over atthe bubble tea shop as someone hurt my pride today...I was bloody upset that i purposely gotten myself soaked wet...the person said" can you dont follow me into kfc? cos i scared they misunderstand that we are a couple and cos of this i'm scared to even step in..." Upon hearing this i'm really sad that he trampled on my pride...I seriously hate him at that point of time till i just told him enough said! and i soaked myself in the rain and i walked away cos i felt so embarassed! I never been embarassed till this stage... I wanted to ask him is it an embarassment to go together with you for lunch? But i did not. I kept it to myself and i cried.But ever since this moment, i decide that i shall never go with this person for any meals anymore.But did not even bother to inform the person because i dont wanna even waste my effort. Forget it enough said i wanna revise for common test tomorrow there is test for geog and cos of this incident i dun have the mood to study..but will force myself to study~ Bye

Studying wiv irfan in library?

2009-02-26T12:01:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow common test chemistry and english papers are up! Went with my Junior Irfan to the library to study.Went home to prepare. but i cried upon recieving a phone call repremanding me because somebody was angry with me because i was late to school and gotten him into hot soup. When i was on the way home , a black cat followed me all the way till my house door and only grandmother managed to get her away!!cos it refused to leave even after we fed it.. I'm badly frightened by the cat and seriously allergy to cats from today onwards..

~This cat was the cat that made me allergy to all types of cats nowadays~

After that i went down with Irfan down to the MP library to study and his friend came along too=D We went mama shop and did alot of nonsense and cracked alot of horny jokes haha~But its happy and good experience studying with these juniors=D Hope i managed to help you guys a little bit=D We even ate in the library LOL?Here are some pics of them:

~Irfan and his friend~ Do they look like mountain climbers?=X

~ Eh boys here not ur grandpa house leh?!~=D

~Balik Kampong~Packing up go home~

After studying till around 7 plus, mum wants me home and i parted with them because they wanted to play catching~ Sorry guys tmr got 2 test cannot play with you guys some other times ok?<333^^ Okay nid go study chem le, overally i'm happy today^^But yet super stressed and upset.. signning off here=D

CT

2009-02-25T09:45:00.000+08:00

Today we had D&T test after school today..It was so stressful and only recalled it yesterday..Mr hazmi had sore eyes today and we were released at 3.30 today...The test was okay just hope can pass cos did not really study...Felt really lonely after test..Cos i realised i was alone all these whiles after a cold war broke out due to some childish people...Okay shall not mention..But it really feels terrible having simply no friends by ur side..while i was walking to the bus stop alone, every step i took, it made me missed the times i had all my friends with me, as well as my kor and jie who have graduated 2 yrs ago..During recess and before lessons as well...i was simply all alone?! But nevertheless i will rather be a lone ranger than going back to be someone's puppy..But i simply do not understand why people would rather be the other person's puppy rather than standing up against that person and be a man with pride with friends who truly care about you?...Forget it..dont want to mention about it cos it makes me heart break okay signing off from here nid to revise common test on thurs liao.

Old man Birthday

2009-02-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

Today was rather a taxing day lol. Same usual cycle, skipped higher mother tongue and miss zhou understood me=D Went for npdp as usual and I made a new friend from area 14 called waifa and met khari my atc mate from pasir ris sec but i think he does not regonise me already...sad..The hentakaki got 2 sec 2s i think? They marched two tiles apart!! LOL laughed my ass off hahaToday is daddy's birthday.After NPDP today, meimei smsed me to buy a cake back for papa for birthday
for 7 bucks =D

This two cakes=D one for papa one for mei from bangawan solo for 7 bucks.

Happy birthday to my dear papa=D Old by another year liao my silly old man=D love you=D Thanks for not blaming me for my phone bill=D Faster grow older so i can filial you=D

Random

2009-02-18T15:36:00.000+08:00

Okay peeps today its rather a random post ok..dont really feel like blogging but then since i'm quite free now, shall just state some nonsense abt these few days yes? Okays i would say that these two days are quite interesting..Monday someone placed a shoe in front of my face and threaten me and today came acting in front of me to ask for a favour from me...zzz had enough of all these nonsense. If you are just acting, might as well scram as far as you can, i dont need you, neither i will help you. Everyone by my side including my parents also dont want to help you...My gosh...such a failure.. Okay today got back my chinese word test and among the whole class only 9 of us manage to survive and o managed to clinch a 74 marks for it=) its really worth it foucusing more on accademic.Highest among all is 84 marks...Gosh sobs..At first i tot gonna fail but in the end i passed~Today mrs tan sucessfully scared me by saying theres test on wk 7 and i studied till 12am wth in the end no test..okay unlucky.. but at least started my slightest revision for common test=D Its a historical record as i never started studying so early fer my tests o.0 Hazmi was busy today for some kind of reasons and so D&T students were released early...with a worksheet. Decided to be nice to yx to finish NCC and go home together with him. In the end waiting for 3 hours. Weiqi was talking to me on the phone and justin back in school to accompany me fer an hr thanks my dears =D Today i finally know that i'm being loved by My 2 dearest 4I seniors - ah kor and jiejie + Ah mah joyjoy and Jillion jillian darling=D and of course not forgetting my dearest family=D aiai ni men=D 5203344

Outing with weiqi

2009-02-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

Heys readers=D, today i went out with my junior weiqi to buy his npcc stuff over at the army shop along tampinese street 81 that area. But firstly both of us went for an early lunch over at t mall and we went out to the pasa malam there as weiqi wanted buy cheese sausage but ended up buying a chicken wing which is 1.20 but 25 to 40cm long i think! haha it was an enjoyment watching him eat his chicken wing hashas.We took 291 down to street 81 next. We went to the army shop and weiqi bought alot of nonsense as he assured me that he would=D i only bought a 30 cent safety pins lol?! After all the rubbish shoppings that weiqi did, we took 22 back into t mall and weiqi treated me to fries=D thanks so much<33=DAnd we took bus and head back marine terrace. I noticed i'm just like a chatterbox which cannot be closed LOL? as weiqi and me just talked and talked all the way during the long and boring bus journeys.. Why do we have endless topics to talk about? Hahas anyways, weiqi it was a pleasure being able to go out with you and buy nonsense over at the army shop which we walked in circles over and over again for many many rounds and it lasted for an hour.Hope that in future i will get to go home wiv you or have frequent outings with you and the others=D Kays shall sign off from here peeps =D see you

Valenties Day

2009-02-15T15:59:00.000+08:00

Heyos readers, i had spent a unique valenties day with my mother and sister for this year. But first lets wish all readers a happy valenties day thought i dont have a couple or smth and i'm not keen nor have the time to even get one.In the afternoon, helped meimei sourced for her lab thermometre for science project and nearly went crazy over it.But it paid off as i found a warehouse that sells all equipments and nonsense.Msged mum the details and left it to her and dad to go and get it for her.After all the crazy checking, i went to do a quick wash up and went down to orchard to meet mummy. Went with her to tanglin mall and did a slight shopping and went over to Kallang leisure park to meet my ke lian de xiao mei whose carrying a tired face after her taxing yet demanding band training.I got a pair of earings and a note book from mi and mei respectively.After a dinner, mum decided to reward me with a value box from kfc and we caught a night show which is bride war.It made me realise the importance of friendship and sisterhood.True friends are really hard to find. It was rather funny as the movie screened out Love matters which is Nc 16 wth? Mum went out to complain and the screener changed the movie and it was delayed by 15 mins. The movie simply rocks and its super nice=D Get to sit the new car that papa gotten and its quite comfy=DOkay am very tired shall rest in liaos. Signing off cyas=)

School Emergency Program

2009-02-14T13:27:00.001+08:00

Today was the school's SOP..Which is like a emergency evacuation thingy..Which its like super lame? Okay today i came to school with mufti and brought my full u along lol!! Ru Huan keep on teasing me with my skirt cos its much shorter than my normal sch skirt.Had 词语测验..Sianz lol was rather difficult nor think will even fail lah wth...Sianz..During recess got changed to full u wiv sharon and when bell rang, went down to PE store room report to benson teo.The whole exercise took about one period and straight away after that, we were dismissed and had lunch.YY and a jerk went off to take9 without me but managed 2 chase up and went for npdp lol After NPDP today so tired..But xunfang so sick so she nvr go with us...Okie its a rather arward experience of npdp today.. So tiring...Met sharifah from Springfield sec sea unit omg my another atc mate and she regonised me!! so happy..so tired liao wor sign off here le bye!=D

Movies~

2009-02-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

Today was rather a sian day, and grandmother said that it was a special year tat married chinese daughters are suppose to bring their mothers out and buy some acessories and clothings for them and mummy see that i was alone at home so she decided to reward me by bringing me along for a shopping trip. We went to mellina walk and grandma and mummy each had some gains haha. Mum and me bought starlight and twilight chocolate though hahas unique names for chocolates right?=)Next we took a cab down to shaw centre had a few rounds around the shops there...its rather lame oh gosh but its worth it spending time with my lovely family..After a while, mummy me ah mah waited for our driver koh to drive little sister down to to shaw and we had big basin noodle and after that, we went for 2 continuous movies from 9.50 to 1.45 am lol am i insane? Yes i am in fact i'm just trying to force my eyes open as i was very tired and i really hate to see my sister and mother disappointed so yeah i watched with them Red Cliff 2 and Looking for a Star..I was so touched that i dropped tears at the end=)..Looking for a star truly rock!!okay i feel really dead but its all worth it for my family=D <333>

NPDP

2009-02-06T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hie again peeps! Today is the day i went to Home Team Academy for my NPDP training...It was quite okay but has quite amount of confusion.Junwen and me are the flag bearers for our school and we have to undergo special trainings and it will be rather tough thou my gosh...But first, thanks xunfang for being my live excuse slip=) cos if without you i would not been able to come out from higher chinese class already=)After a quick lunch, we rushed over to changkat changi secondary to meet up with east spring secondary and together depart over to home team accademy.The bus was very very late and all the 3 schools we were late over and we reached about 4 plus?! oh gosh sad missed 1 hr of the training T_T Okay the sirs are so horny there though as they keep talking about bras and poking...yeah all those craps but i know they were trying to make training more memorable for us=) anyways we were fed like pigs as theres a break in between trainings and we were given rations after trainings hahas..i learnt how to hold my flag pole in a properly manner and excecute drills with it..Today it wasn't a really tired day but i am really worried as jianli called me and told me he lost his full-u...i'm worried for u brother about ur full uniform...Signing off from here..i'm already all dead...bye peeps...

Phy test

2009-02-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Okay Peeps i know that i have not been updating my blog often please forgive me okay?Today i have nothing much to share with you guys. Shall share about some boring sch stuff=) i just finished my physics test just now during physics and think i'll fail cos i put the units wrongly gosh=.=" i studied so hard for it i really don't want to fail it! POA test is next tuesday and we had file checking today...Hm skipped my last lesson because went for teacher ushering and it was super boring no difference from sec 1 registration....Yes some teachers picked on my cos of my badge...Forget it man!!! Was rather fed up about it, i think that my list of teachers was the longest of 19 teachers... Its thurday and i wonder how will NDPD be! Tomorrow will be first training for NPDP and i'm so excited and wonder how will training be=) HTA here i come!! Gosh i haven polish my boots and i dont think have time to polish! It will be half U =) So tired today after everything~but i have to go for facial now or i'll be late already wor=XOkay signing off from here, Bye peeps=)

Praying during a sch hol?

2009-02-03T09:58:00.000+08:00

Today is a school hol..and its the first day ignoring the calls of you guys cos i'm mending my broken heart~I dun think it would mend that soon as it is seriously shattered into many many crystal shards...But mummy was really concern about my condition...worried about if i would cry so badly again today but in fact i really did when i hung up on 2 persons..both are my brothers...one i loved deeply and which i think i can never forget...Ah mah told me that since today is 初八，and i 刑太岁, so nida go temple to pray. My younger uncle also so grandma took me out and i brought my compre book with me as i knew that i would be rather bored. Ah mah and me took 55 and picked up xiao jiu over at paya lebar and we went to pray. After all the praying, grandma and me went to bread shop buy some bread and went home=) It was a holiday with sorrows and i dun wanna forgive those who did wrong to me....

Betrayed

2009-02-02T15:55:00.000+08:00

Today was suppose to be a joyous day, as my house was having our" lou hei" session and everyone is very happy as theres abloney also leh=P mummy even said i ate too many slices lol=P there were desert also but i mised all those as i rushed down all the way to Sim Lim square to meet my peers for some shopping of eletronic parts.After a while, i felt quite left out and therefore one of my friend and me left the group and strolled over to sunshine plaza. After a short while, i went over to causeway point to meet my mother.My mother, god mum and two of her other friends.When i was alone on the train to causeway point, it brings back many memories when the train passed by places like bishan, toa payoh, ang moh kio, sembawang, amirilty, city hall and so on.... But the place that brings back the most memories is causeway point....once i step into there, the memories started flowing back into my mind slowly..Every single step i took, it just reminds me of somebody and especially went i look up and i saw the cinema.....the railings...it hurts so much and badly... I have simply no rights as i hurt him far too much already and things for us is irreversible already. when i went over to the restaurant and look for them, i was made to eat rice with two slices of chicken because i am a patient and cannot be empty stomach.After a while, both of mummy and god mum's friends cum classmates left us. We went over to Lot 1 choa chu kang. There brought back many memories, but not as much as causeway point.. it was the last place that we went together as a couple i remembered. It was so heart warming to remember all these memories but yet it just breaks my heart again and again. I have gotten a new wallet as god mother bought one from the wallet shop for me hahas. But at lot 1, i got fooled by two of my friends who said that i had no integrity and all the crap? ok fine i came to terms with it and i accepted the fact but on that day itself, i cried my heart out at Avies the shop, surprising eh? The person whose consolling me , giving me advices and of course making me feel better and solutions is my mother and god mother! I should seriously learn to cherish my family members around me!! The person whom will be there to help and support you when you are sad are always people around who truly loves you and care about you.I learnt that if people truly love and care about you, they do not do things that they know that it would simply hurt you. Its the 11th time i ever cried over you already my dear..Its time that i come to my sense and remove you slowly from my mind.....I had no mood to shop fer the whole period of time and home sweet home at 11 plus=) i'm glad to be home as i feel so protected...Anyways signing off from here people bye bye~

Lame CNY

2009-01-28T12:20:00.000+08:00

This chinese new year was rather a not so good chinese new year its because i fell sick even on the first day of chinese new year..Throughout the whole chinese new year, first day i went to the temple and second day, i went to Yio peng auntie house and my elder uncle's house.Nothing much except vomitted up on the first day=.=i never tried crying on the first day of CNY lol? But i only kept $10 of my red packets. The rest of the red packets have flown to my financial keeper's pouch. In fact i never knew how much of money i got for red packets and i dont really bother to know how much i got.I really miss my two cousins whom used to be so close to me but yet now we seem centuries apart and we're just like strangers and i'm feeling so regret that i did not break the ice between us. My elder cousin is going fer National Service and i suddenly felt so proud of him. He seriously looked handsome! After the trip to the house of my elder uncle, i yearn to grow taller! I feel so short when standing beside my elder cousins!! I must seriously work harder to grow taller!! Surprisingly i ate only 4 bowls of sharks fins this whole new year omg? My usual record is 7.... During first day of new year, my aunt gave me two pairs of earings that were handmade by her! Thank you Aunt=D Hopefully the new year of next year will be better? Hehe hope that i'm not ill for the next new year!=P Okay signing off from here and wish you people a happy Niu year^^

Reunion with Wai Pheng god mum

2009-01-25T13:23:00.001+08:00

It was one of the events that every year i have been looking forward to=D I have a god mum who lives in Canada came back from there to Singapore and today mummy me and daddy meeting her fer dinner!=D i very obedient de k..i stay at home do work leh!=D After that somemore help pack stuff cos CNY on its way here mar=D so i got nag by ah mah pack the room table=X After that straight away went out wiv mummy. I ate the most over the whole dinner ok?=) We picked up gan ma at Ajunid , we went over to Changi Village there have dinner. I realised i am the only person who eats crab and therefore i ate three quarters of the crab =.= After that, waipheng god mum , mummy and me went shopping around the free market surrounding the food centre that we went. Mum bought earrings, i bought clips but god mum bought nothing?! oh my..Initially, mummy fell in love with a set of quit covers and all, but daddy's face already told her the answer if she could be the owner of them..I'm sorry that i could not do much mother..After the shopping and all, mum sent god mother back to tampinese to the house of her second brother. Before she alighted from the car, she gave me four bags and mostly are havesacks. And the most precious gift that she left me was the t-shirt that she printed her own image onto. Thanks god mum=D After that, mum and dad drove back to marine parade and pick up our little princess who waited for us the whole day at home.We popped over to Giant at parkway parade at around 11pm and we bought many many cartons of drinks to serve our guests and of course ourselves=X After that we went to NTUC to get some Mandarin oranges and lastly we went over to a tea house over at siglap to have a light supper and dashed back home to have a good night rest.=)

Wild wild wet~

2009-01-24T13:05:00.000+08:00

It was CNY celebration today in school but it was a more to an eye as i went wild wild wet wiv 4 friends today yeah^^ CNY celebration in school is super lame as it was only just like watching a video and a concert lol so lame but during the concert jerold the campus super star sang and that was the best among all! But during chemistry we did and experiment on filtration becuz miss toh says that we shall take a break from theory and do some hands on during new year.Shes strict but nice lah esp during pratical okay=) Kailing broke an evaporating dish LOL? Suay la you! Happy to know that miss toh likes me as her chem rep and shes understanding okay=D She said that i was a responsible rep haha i'm really happy.

~My experiment set up~

~Contents inside the evaporating dish~

~Apparatus used~

~Filter funnel stuck with smth?~

~Evaporating dish that Kai Ling broke~

After then concert, we changed into our home clothes and popped over fer lunch at t mart and met gareth at the Tampinese East cc there as he went home take clothes.We took 12 over to Downtown East and off we chiong into wild wild wet.We dashed into the toilet and got changed and off we went into the pools.We went tsunami pool, ulah ulah,shiok river, sky rider and another slide which i screamed like crap fer no particular reason? Why am i so random today haha.In the tsunami i was not allowed by my fwens to go beyond 1.2 metres as i cannot swim T_T.During ulah ulah i screamed the loudest till my another fwen asked me if i was a lunatic woman lol?!We went rounds and rounds winding around the river and i got tan like charcoal i think? My face was badly burnt lol i had a few "soviniors". I meant that on my knee cap there were 4 cuts zzz... really destinated to have a wound new year lol?Special thanks to ALL the ones who accompanied me play sky rider thou the toe was already bleeding and fear heights, the one which supported me all the way when i accidentally sliced my kneecap=)Not forgetting the two who accomodated all my rubbish shouting and pulled me back when i was beyond certain point=)These people u should noe who am i talking about lah=)At around 6 plus, i blanga Jianli zinger meal and i kepoke a little paisei hor=X One of my fwen went home first sorry for not accompanying you my friend...Justin and Jianli headed into white sands while gareth and me went to the arcade.For parapara lol?Sorry Justin did not manage to catch you for bus 17=(

~Dancing King~

After we went arcade, we went pretty pixs see UFO catchers and then next to challanger and then to thunder bird.Finally home sweet home via mrt.Believe it? i was so unlucky the train was delayed because the tracks got technical problems?! lol but does'nt matter haha cos got company wat=X After that took 16 home form bedok int. Surprisingly dad did not scold me when i reach home instead he asked me if i had fun there and ticket price and stuff=D I was quite touched that he nvr scold me thou haha=X Okay peeps i'm tired and signing off from here le cya next time=X